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2007-04-19T23:39:00.000+08:00

Hola...!!
No mood to blog..
Tomorrow my OPERATION dae..
Pray fer me aytez...
K then..
Buhbye!!!

2007-04-16T00:55:00.000+08:00

while im surfing e net.sumthg caught my eye..which is celebrity look alikes..thought of giviguess wat? yes i did..jt two photo of mine, gt e diff range of artist..n its was so fun...try it out!

2007-04-07T00:04:00.000+08:00

march 07 makes my life lyke a fcking shit...
wat do u expect,my bag been stolen by an asshole,sick fer 3 wks, watever shit i did is all wrg,fight wif my dearie...gosh! all tiz shit drive me crazy.........!!!!

Pplz been watching me all tiz while n i did nt knw tat ok! all tiz happen on 16/3/07...as usual jt leave my beg underneath e cash register...neva thought of anythg...gt back to werk as usual...hav 2 leave e counter to attent to e customers who need my assistance...tat was e last tyme i saw my back..coz my hp i carried wif me wherever i go provided some of my cash notes....e whole dae was so fcking bz....im so stress...bt lucky to hav my boss there who alwaes as usual came down to raffles during lunch tyme to help me out...wat do u expect im e only one werking there k..n i feel lyke a zombie working alone.....SO BORING!!! tyme shows 7+ thought of buying sum stuff at watson so i need my nets..gt back to e counter n realise tat my beg has gone...searching lyke hell..still no sign of it..i gav up n knwoing tat my beg has been stolen..thanx!! My mp3 which i jt brought a few mths back has gone!!! few cash of mine gone, 2 nets gone,bunch of two house keys n store keys,ez-link card....wat a dae sey.....bt im lucky tat my hp save wif me jt abit piss-off,my mp3 gone!!! cnt leave w/o it ok!!!!!

nxt story is abt my sickness...feel lyke dying sey....first fall sick by food poisioning,took 2 daes to recover after a few daes fall sick again due of high fever tat reach 39..n it tooks 5 daes to recover..after 2 daes fall sick AGAIN!! flu n cough..Till nw havent recover yet..mcm nk mampos sey....
my frenz who has nt meet me fer almost a mth was so shock to c me...first thg they sae to me "faezah,ape da jadi ngan ko? asl ko makin kurus kering nie..seluar pn da longgar...r u okay girl?" thanx eh....mayb b'coz of my sickness fer e 3 wks tat makes me b'come more slimmer..ok pe..da tk tembam lagik ahahakz...nt only tat even my regular customer who quite sumtymes neva seen her also shock to c me...gosh! cnt believe theres still sumone out there care abt me...hee! n i hav to go fer check up tiz wks..as in operation..bt dunno when..due of sum thinggy at e back of my neck..pray fer me aytez...

nxt story is abt my relationships...nah..i cnt b bother to express my feelings here...prefer to keep it myself... its comment, every relationships has e up n down feelings n situation ryte..mayb we haven knew each other tat well..alot os misunderstanding...watever it is i still luv him.aww....ahakz...

btw thanx 2 my dearie fer e mp4 tat he gav me since my mp3 has gone..he knw i cnt survive w/o listening to e music..wat do u expect everydae in e morning take train n surround u was cover wif silent n peace,mcm da mati g2..boring kn...summore i alwaes sleep in e train,buruk sey...atleast has music wont make me bored n sleepy..hehehe... N yes! thanx to my bro fer recomment me to one of e hp shop...i brought myself a new hp which is sony ericsson w810i...(black) im luvin it..no more using a orbit tones which is polyphonic tonez..eeeuuu...ahahkz...nw i feel alife..everythg new..gt mp4 bt dearie n brought new hp fer myself..cool!!
till here then...
toodles...~

ps: miz my late grandma...may she rest in peace..will alwaez miz n luv her..

2007-03-11T20:46:00.001+08:00

Haluuuuu...
im back frm bloggin...
its been a week i've been silent i knw..hehehe
too many probz ard me..bt nw im cool..=)

I gt out of sudden sick on tat weds..dunno wat happen..after eating mee soto suddenly my body felt weak..headache n stomach cramp attack me..gosh! terrible sia...vomit non-stop..e nxt dae MC...went doc gt to knw i gt food poisonin...thanx to tat mee soto....

aniwaez yest as usual after werk met dearie..yippy!! MIZ HIM SOOO MUCH!!!
I felt sooo happy n soo much better whenever i c his face..hmmm...luvin him to bitz..muax! =p heeee!
suppose to mit him ard 430..coz he finish werk at 4...bt his 430 pn leh tahan..445 then he reach..gt use to his latenest already..argh! bt one think tat gd of him is tat he luv to make me melt..wif his cute face...eeee...im weak wif tat ok!!!!
we headed to marina..wanna watch movie..300! n guess wat,e ticket selling fast...haiseyman...so we processed to bugis...n phew! lucky e ticket still selling..
btw while on e wae to bugis we gt a lil fight ok! n its took us almost 3hrs 30 mins to gt back as pernormal!! it was really a fcking dae....
btw u guyz shld watch e 300 movie b'coz e movie was sooooooooo worth it!!
Then we went to bancoolen to hav out dinner..we have nt been eatin since mornin...e nasi lemak there was nice..nt bad..luv e sambal...tyme shows 1040, no where to go he send me home..bt still its too early fer me.. E NIGHT IS STILL YOUNG!! so i decided to chill a lil while wif him..miz him so much.. its all bcoz of out stupid 3hrs 30 mins fight tat makes our tmye to spend tyme toghether short...argh!! watever it is im sooooo sowie dear....i jt luv sooo much..cnt bare to loose u n too scared too loose u.... aniwaez i enjoy e short hrs wif u althought its too short bt im luvin it..!! heee!!

2007-02-23T00:12:00.000+08:00

Hola!!

I jt had no mood to update..not in e ryte state of mine..sowie... will updating soon!!..~toodlez~

2007-02-20T17:06:00.000+08:00

Bro arrived s'pore 2dae after e whole week been stayin otherz countries due of werking stuff..n atlast he got hm..kinda miz him coz me n him cn so called quite closed..anythg probz i luv to shared wif him...im lucky to hav a bro like him..seriously..ahakz..MCM FAHAM!aniwaez, 2 daes nt werkin staying at hm makes me feel uneasy..kaki asyik gatal jek nk kluar..rather werkin then staying at hm...BORING!!! bt in e other hand felt so lazy to go to werk...giler! aniwaez, yest visit my grandmother at CGH! frm e ferst she been posted to hosp till yest i jt gt e apportunity to visit her..haha..bz werkin wat do u expect...seem lyke her condition gettin better jt tat i pitty her coz imagine morning eat 10 medicine afternoon 10 night i dunno..if night 10 also,walau wei cn go crazy sey...1 dae 30 medicine? giler pe!! watever it is hope she gt well soon....
hmm...its been awhile eh i neva update my blog..jt wanna shared abit abt e valentines dae..hehe..nuthin much interesting..brought fer my dearie a topman t-shirt n guez wat!! i gt nuthin frm him..:'( sob*sob*..so sad..easy gt jealous whenever i c couples holding flowers,CHOCOLATE wif e HEART shape...eeeeee...geram!! felt lyke wanna take scissors n cut away those flowers....hmph!!! watever it is i still luv my dearie..ahakz...althought its nuthin bt had a great tyme wif him althought jt a short while coz i cnt take off on tat special dae..grrr...watever...
n as fer todae,im jt slacking at hm wif my lappy,nuthin betta to do..jt hav to wait fer my cloth to dry n need to iron it coz...2morrow WERKIN!!! haiz...penat sey....aniwaez HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR.....

2007-01-31T23:00:00.000+08:00

Alright tat itz!! I nd money nw!! Nd my salary ASAP! y? coz my stupid pinkies motorola v3 nd to send fer SERVICE!! Fck ar! Dunno y suddenly e LCD blown off..SICKENING!! Dad askd me to send fer service b4 its too late since i hav e 1 yr warranty card..bt in e other hand my bro told me tat i nd to pay fer it...Think n Think n Think! i guess..better still buy new hp then wasting my tyme n money to send services n nd to pay fer it! no use of gettin 1yr warranty...Desperately need new hp..ryte nw im using e "old skul" hp which is nokia 7260..pekak kn..nw pplz using mp3 tonez me myself using polytonez...LAME! Actual target wanna brought tiz Nokia N73 bt its cost alot man! I jt need e hp..trade-in wat i mean...coz e line im using still in a 2 yrs plan...so fer e mean tyme thought of buying Nokia 3500..atleast ok pe..gt 3G summore..hehe..as long tk ketinggalan zaman suda...=p....Thanx to u ar eh motorola fer making my life misserable...hmph! so plz!! send my salary sooon...!!!

Muslim r nt allowed to celebrate valentine daes..bt nw im stressing abt wat to gav to my dearie fer valentines dae..thought of wanna brought a couple ring bt its too commen..he act aiming fer nintendo ds..gosh! tatz cost alot man! expect me to brought fer him? NO WAY!! besides,he gt show me tiz one cloth which he lyke it so much..thought of buying tat fer him or mayb brought fer him jeans or perhaps shoes..hmmm...dunoo ar..so headache ar to think all tiz...aniwaez,im nt saying tat im celebrating it,bt its nt wrg ryte fer us to gav a give fer sumone u luv..doesnt mean givin a prezzie means u r celebrating it..tatz wat i thought of ar..bt dunno wif u guyz out there...wat do u think? izzit wrg or nt? tag me! *wink!

2007-01-28T21:59:00.000+08:00

Gosh! i jt cnt wait fer my salary..need BRAND NEW SHOES N BAG! tatz all! yeah! really? tatz all? hmm...i dnt think so..:p

aniwaez..had a great tyme wif dearie yest..although its BORING! bt atleast we had a great tyme..hee! act we plan to c movie bt end up CANCEL! coz dearie seem too tired n no mood..its ok! understand tat...bt abit angry,coz if u knw ur tired better still we cancel our plan n meet sum other tymes..jt go n hav a gd rest..bt he was so freakin stubborn..argh! reason,miz me..
ya i knw hw ya feel coz we rarely meet each other,bt hey e world havent end yet,we still gt tyme n daes to meet up..so chill! :)
aniwaes,hes beein such a sweet guy tat whole dae..yea..so sweet..dunno y..bt i lyke it! :p jt luvin him every single dae,minut,hrs n etc..he mean so much fer me..thanx fer beein there fer me..accept me fer who i am.. although i cnt really ans ur qns,y i luv..its doesnt mean tat i luv ya jt fer fun no reason..NO! u mean too much fer me till i cnt find a reason y...luv u wif all my heart n soul...so plz dear dnt ever think me in a wrg wae..u cn proof me wrg...hope tiz feeling wont end..jt dnt judge me lyke ur ex..im nt tat type of gerl...believe me...
btw speaking of ex thinggy..hmmm
his latest ex name is julie...n guesz wat,tiz gerl was my ex sec schl frenz...i was soo speechless..coz seen her many tymes..luv to smile as alwaez..tall,a lil dark.act cute..(seriously)...n kinda nerdy..hee! bt hey dnt jt e book by its cover..she change alot nw! wae much diff than e old daes....so watever...
wat past is past..i dnt even bother...jt hate tat fckin sec schl...

aniwaez,im happy wif my life nw...much wae happier than e past...nuthin to think abt,stress or depression...im jt luvin it every single dae...really carry on my life wif fresh new life n fresh new dearie n fresh new yrs...:) bt i cnt understand y...y tiz fella,hafidz..cnt seem to c me happy? fer e past 3yrs+ i've been wif u..nuthin seem to b perfect or happier...ur promises was fake! talk abt changing..gav ya alotsa chances to change..end up wat happen..ur gettin bad to worst..nw u blame me fer all tiz shit...ur fault u turn it to me..n call me names n even scld me vulgar words..when i sae everythg abt wat u had done n etc u told me nt to b on a winning side..wat e hell? nw btwn u n me has already end up..end of our stories..nuthin related..bt watelse u want frm me? u're nt beein urself is ur probz..i dnt even bother..its ur life...up to u...bt wats e motive u msging me jt to tell me all tiz n pick a fight wif me? cum on ar..grown up..me mature..we nt small kids already...jt face e fact..jt walk straight..wake up n smell e fresh air..HELLO!!! ure beein proud n lame...bt wat makes me suck my blood is tat his gerlfren or so call scandal..y i called scandal? coz he gt to knw tiz gerl frm clubbin...kinda bitchy...c..a sweet talk ma fck guy talkin crap wif me by sayin hate to go clubbin n in ur dreams ar he wanna step into clubbin..end up, c wat happen..siape yg da rosak skg? u been callin me names such as bitch,liar,minah n etc..bt c fer urself...DID U MIRROR URSELF B4 U SAED OTHERS? DID U? i dnt think so...dnt think u hav bike u wanna show off..KR,KIPS means KENDERAAN IDAMAN PPN SUNDAL! sooo think! if im a bitch,i wldnt want u at e ferst place.i wldnt accept u e wae u r..i wldnt last wif u fer 3yrs+..i will jt go bitching ard wif sum other guyz or perhaps more better than u...u even sae tat i dnt even appreciate watver thgs u hav done to me..lyke hello! wat for we been together fer 3yrs+ if theres nuthin? u talk w/o thinkin..hatez to sae much n repeat e same thgs over again n again...coz u r too slow n too inmature to understand every single werds i saed...jt wake up n look ard dude...THINK!!! i guez..i hav been wasting my tyme fer 3yrs+ spending tyme wif a guyz tat had no brain to think n neva appreciate wat pplz ard ya had done to u..u jt beein egoist,selfish,proud n lame...i really regret it n upset abt it...btw clubbin gerls nt all cn b trusted..remembered tiz phrase " some clubbin gerls r beein a bitch,they jt love to bitching ard wif guyz..dnt care whether they attach nor married..they even goes fer vehicle such as bike or cars..even worst kr!..guyz luv clubbin gerls coz they cn let go their nerve to e bitch tat they caught fer e dae..no one go hm wif an empty handed wen go clubbin!" remembered tiz? tis is wat u said to me...n u mean it alot n u hatez gerls who luv to go club...bt end up..who is e one who speak louder than a speaker..or even BBL WORLD! so jt warn ur gerl nt to disturb my life..as i've done nuthin wrg wif her..if she thinks she brave enough y nt jt c me face to face if there anythg tat shes nt happy abt..theres no need to b childish or PENAKUT by smsin or using PRIVATE no to disturb me or so called balas dendam..so e lame n kentallan sey...im nt stupid or wat tat u cn fool ard wif me..wanna play games? im alwaez on it...i'll let her free tiz tyme,do wat ever she wanna do, bt dnt step over my head..or make my blood goes upstairs coz u wouldnt want anythg worst happen to ur gerl kn..so try me!! sabar mmg sabar..n thanx to dearie fer advising me...biar org buat kita jgn kita uat org..bt mr hafidz...u knw me best...soo one advice,tk care of her,b urself,gt a life!

Alhamdullillah...tuhan tu adil..b4 we went far n gettin worst better still shows e worst ferst b4 gettin too late...syukur! nw i gettin strong,i gt to b'come a better person..jt be urself...there wont b a problem..coz beein two faces is suck..its make things more complicated....so fer wat to hide..jt show ur true colours..e one tat really luvs u will accept fer who u r...nt fer ur looks or etc..bt fer who u r n ur hearts..so jt think straight...nw i hav learn alot..life will b great if u cn handle it...

2007-01-26T00:07:00.000+08:00

Back frm bloggin...

im sick n tired of werkin..everydae werk3...non-stop..gt to rest only fer one dae..wat e hack! aniwaes,nt meetin dearie todae..coz hes werkin..:( kinda miss him...(padahal smlm aru jumpe sey)...btw,my ex,HAFIDZ,msg me..haha..tiz really funny...dunno wats his motive msging me until i realise tiz few msg he gav me...

HAFIDZ: Hi faezah! hw r u?
Me: Fine..hw abt ya?
HAFIDZ: Fine too..
Me: Ok..hws e celebration?
HAFIDZ: My b'dae? oh duin great..gt lotsa prezzie frm my frens..hws ur relationship guin? gd?
Me: Ouh..tatz gd..neva fine one?
HAFIDZ: Me? i hav my own gerl already..gt bike summore..mayb jap lagik nk bergantung ngan dea jap..hey,u haven ans my qns..hws ur elationship guin? gd?
Me: ouh..tat gds..n so fast haha..ya..so far so gd..im happy wif my life nw..jaga dea baek2..dnt b lyke me..hahahahaha
HAFIDZ: Of coz i dnt wanna my gerl to be lyke u...ya..we recently jt together.. u cn c her photo at my primary photo...
Me: ouh really? tatz gd..kla i gtg..my dearie r waiting fer me..nk alek..tc!
HAFIDZ: OK! BYE!

hahahahaha...so u guyz find out already? so lyke the WHAT RYTE! he intension to msg me jt to tell me all tiz SHIT? to make me jealous? lyke HELLO!!! i already gt my own life n so do u..so wat e motive u tellin me all tiz..BBL cm faham kononnye nk single spi da habez army..tkleh lepaskn me coz im too precious fer him..susah nk lupe kn me n watever BULLSHIT! n guez wat..dlm sekelip mata da ade MINAH ARU!..gd fer ya la eh hafidz...haha..jt tc of her..NOT ONLY TAT..ur attitude is e main character..CHANGE! hahahaha...mcm2 ar..kids nw a days...aniwaez..yes! im happy wif my life nw..much more happie than e past...no more stress,no more depression,distracting n watever shit ar eh...jt HAPPY...=)

2007-01-21T18:31:00.000+08:00

PARTY POPPERS!

Hey,firstly,wanna wish my sweet luvely cuzzy a HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U!! eeee...da tua ar..hehe...best wishes to u sis..hope ya had a wonderful dae todae althought u celebratin ur b'dae w/o hubby..relax ok..sok abg wan da alek..so chill aytez..hehe...

Aniwaez..nuthin to do todae..dearie askd me out..bt i cnt..lyke duh! todae is sunday, n its FAMILY DAY! BORING!! My family doesnt hav any plan..so whole dae jt staying at home besar kn bontot...lame rytez..Really miss dearie so much.. till he cnt take it n wanna sent me to werk 2morrow..ahakz..so swit..bt MCM PAHAM! I will buy 4D if he really wakes up in e mornin n sent me to werk..seriously....!! sooo..ya..tatz e story fer todae..wth! so TOODLEZ~

2007-01-13T23:35:00.000+08:00

Back frm bloggin...n jt rech hm...haiz..tired!

After werk me n dearie went to lau pa sat had our lunch there..after tat proceed to tanglin mall mit yana n man..its act our 1 mth anniversary..=) decided to wear white wif dearie..hehehehe...supposely i shld go out wif him only bt since we both had no idea wanna go where,wanna go vivo bt dearie dunno e wae to go there so i decided to askd yana n man to come along wif us...coz man knw e wae to vivo..:)

aniwaez havin a great tyme wif them..semangat2 g vivo kononnye nk c movie end up tk jadi..e show tat we wanna watch start ard 1155..siape mau layan sey... btw its was e ferst tyme dearie went to vivo..ahakz..mcm tk caya g2..till c e wae he react was lyke "what e hell?" so e jakun..hehe..so cute of him..im happy coz im so called e ferst person to bring him to vivo..hahaha..LAME..aniwaez after havin so much fun we proceed to changi..go mkn..! we 4 ate nasi ayam penyet..
act nuthin much interesting or wat so ever..we jt had so much fun.. n yes i knw we shld hav given each other sumthg..bt we dont! dua2 tkde duit..hehe.. by spending so much tyme together is already enough fer us..ahahkz..touching sey...so hmm..kla nuthin else to sae..bloggin soon..toodlez~

2007-01-07T23:52:00.000+08:00

went out havin dinner wif my family...ferst thought wanna bring my parents to VIVO CITY... bt my dad desagree wif us.. (my bro n me) end up he e one who plan us to go to AMK...i was lyke..duh!! bnyk2 tempat AMK eh..hmm..
He wanna try to eat at RAMEN TEN..sounds fun..

Aniwaez caught some pic of our foods..hav a glimpse..:p
btw I DONT KNW E NAME OF E FOOD!!

My Bro food..

My Food

My Parents Food

My parents drinks ..Hot tea..

My Drinks..Yummy! CHOCOLATE FREEZE!

My Bro drinks..Mango bla bla bla...

2007-01-06T23:45:00.000+08:00

After werk went liang court met dearie..waited fer him abt 1hr+..coz he finishd at 6..bt instead of 6 he end ard 630...hmm...aniwaez..dearie nt feelin so well..askd him to go home n take a rest bt he insist...still wanna go out wif me.. so swit of him...promise is a promise..so touch!

Aniwaez we went to marina..met my lovely sister,yana...miz her loads..
Watelse go shopping lerr..hehe...brought 2 shirt frm topshop..one of it black..same wif yana bt different colours...another one is white colour same as yana too bt different colours..hehe..if nt i aiming fer a blue colour bt no size..majority alot of big size..duh...cnt help it..gt use to it..buy same cloths 2gther-gther..:p after tat went to fourskin brought myself a belt..white in colour..

Dearie nt beein himself fer e dae..coz he sick..beein two faces..wanna go hm early bt he insist..reason he miz me so much..auw..so swit of him...pitty him sey...haiz....overall i had fun wif him n..................wif my lil sis yana... btw thank u sooooo much fer e necklace gerl...luvin it loads!! hee..=) after rounding2...yana decided to go bck to her frenz...so jt left me n him...dearie feeling hungry so i brought him to changi village..he frm tat dea wann go there coz he neva been there b4..ahakz...He seem so surprise to c alot of pplz at tiz tyme ard at changi... hehe..aniwaez..we both ate nasi ayam black pepper...sugar cane was my drinks n soya bean was his drinks...after tat he sent me hm...i askd fer it..coz he seems too tired..muka da pucat..kesian sey..

Aniwaez..thank u soo much dear fer spending tyme wif me althought u're sick.. so swit of u...luv ya so much..muax!=)hee..!!

2006-12-31T23:30:00.000+08:00

Shld i sae a happy dae or a so-so dae? hmm...

After werk met dearie at yishun..suppose he fetch me bt due of sum stuff terpaksela turun yishun..frm there he fetch me n went to "kedai motor" haiz..tk habez2 sey..24 hrs wif bike..wanna upgrade there here everywhere ar..betta change bike than wasted money do tat n watevershit ar...

aniwaez...dearie,me n abg khai (his cuzzy) decided to go vivo city to pick abg khai so call gf frm werk..end up met her at marina...y?? coz both of them did nt knw e wae to go there...best kn???? sukeeee skali!!! ade hati nk g vivo tapi tk tau jln...wat a dae...luckily not rainin...

Reach Marina,take a walk fer a while...1/2 an hr kak ain came...abg khai seem soo happy...a bright smile in his face..menyampah!! haha..after tat went to royal sport,abg khai wanna brought a skool bag fer his small brother...dearie not behaving himself e whole dae..he seems to loose control..very e naughty! hmph!
Klau da npk ppn..eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....tk ingat dunia sey...

A few mins later abg khai brother came...he looks lyke abg2 sey..thought he was abg kahi nye abg..skali opposite ar...if im nt wrg he only 18..guez so..after tat went to CAVANA...feeling so hungry...frm there dearie n e two guyz start to loose control...kacau ppn jek tau..bingit sey...gatal! Hot chicks?! argh! didnt talk to dearie while eating...menyirap sey...he try to pujuk me..bt watever..tk kuasa nk layan...after eating suppose me n dearie hav to go..coz he werking...bt end up he seems so lazy he didnt go to werk...PEMALAS! gav excuse he sick padahal2...ask him y..he told me wanna spent tyme wif him..auwww..so sweet!! watever!! hmph!!

No plan,kak ain decided to play bowling...felt abit nervous coz its been ages i didnt play bowling...so far my score ok ar nt bad..no strike bt atleast gt a spare ok!!! after having fun tyme shows 1030 im in a rush..im late...mum's started to neg at me coz IM LATE!! suppose i should reach hm at 1030 coz i hav to help her..sok hari raya haji pe..bt end up by e tyme i reach hm he finish cooking..n my parents was so mad at me...so sad...haiz...dearie also mad at me coz im in a rush..so sowie dear...hope u understand...watelse..END OF STORY! haiz........

2006-12-25T21:24:00.000+08:00

Gosh! itz been ages im nt bloggin..n guess wat i started wif a fresh new life..Yeah! No more livin in e darkness..what past is past..aniwaez sowie fer nt updating..been bz wif werk n sum stuff..faham2 jela..bz women katakn..ahakz..

Btw MERRY CHRISTMAS to e non-muslims...its seem lyke im happy wif my new life...yeah!

2morrow started to werk..im happy wif my job nw..no distracting,no enemies n etc..more into independent...all e stuff there easy to get along wif...masing2 uat hal sendiri..tk masuk campur hal org lain...need help they will help ya... so im happy werking there..no critisizing each other,no find fault no mata merah n etc...meeting dearie 2morrow after werk almost everydae he fetch me...thanx dear...

n to my previous ex,mr hafidz..if ya happen to read my blog, thanx fer everythg u gav to me n done to me..appreciate alotz.our 3yrs+ memories will alwaez b remembered...its ur decision n i respect it...life hav to go on..hope ya b happy wif ya luv one...do tc!

2006-11-28T19:59:00.000+08:00

hola..bck frm bloggin after 1 dae nt bloggin..hee!!

aniwaez.......

i start werkin already!!

huraay!!

After all tiz while im searching fer a job as in office bt in e end i werk as in SALES ASSISTANT...hahah...i dunno y i cnt avoid frm tat position..mayb gt used to it after beein as a sales gerls in two jobs..shld i mention wats e other two? nah! jt fergt it...wat pass is pass.....

Moving along....

Me nw werkin at TANGLIN MALL...

Wat kind of job?

Been mention above...

Wats was e shop name?

Jt dont bother...haha

WATEVER!!

Well,2dae is my second dae..its really fun act werkin there althought only 2daes..coz all of e staff was superb frendly...cn gt along tat easy wif jt one snap!! as if i've knwn them in ages......cool huh? hmm...further more two of my frenz werkin wif me...LIANA N FAUZIAH...my two sisters...hehe...Luv them to bits....muax...

As fer ur info me jt wake up frm slip..(ape jek i2 pn nk blg...) tired werkin..

not b'coz of jt standing there arranging thinggy n etc coz of tiz stupid customer...haix...b'coz of HIM i've to go PARKWAY to take e thinggy...kinda frustrated...n guez wat...atlast after e long journey n e tiredness...when i came back..e customer left a few minuts back b4 i arrive bck to werk..n decided to cancel it..wah!!! im lovin it sey!!!... nasib baek aku nie ade perasan sabar klau tak...argh!!! think tiz is jt a test fer me n fer e rest of my frenz...sabar jela...customer is alwaez ryte..WATEVER!!!!!

2006-11-26T14:00:00.000+08:00

Hey i been browser through e internet n sumthg caught my attention..it was soo touching...i hav learn sumthg frm tiz story...so read up!

julia is a 13 year old girl who had heart problem..she had difficulties having a bf cause she wasnt pretty enough and moreover,she is sick..she was the only child dat her parents hav.. she started moving frm yishun to punggol
then to tampines..as she move house,she changed skool too..moved to this
strange skool name one tree high..she was scared as ppl over dere might make
fun of her but she was use to it so she juz have to bear with it..the next day arrive and she went to skool she was late and so she was
rushing..den she bump to this guy..*BUMP* her books and his books fell and they started apologising to each other,he insists to sayin sorry to her...he was a
popular guy in skool,the most handsome and talented soccer player,his
name was mike. went to class coincedently..they both were in the same
class,so dey chatted along ,the way to class,dey both were scolded as they were very late..after everything was settle..the teacher introduce..the new
student.. "class,this is julia our new classmate...let's give her the warmest welcome!"......every1 started to whisper to each other as she was some1 wif
heart problems...but mike didnt...?? AFTER 2 MONTHS mike n julia become
closer..eventually,they became bf/gf...den every1 started making fun of mike,especially his team mates at football and even his best frens...asking him why did he become julia's bf,as julia is sick and said that it was really stupid of
him...but mike juz said, "i just love her..she mean alot to
me...when feelings comes,nth else matters..."julia meanwhile was looking
frm far,she look sad..mike den saw julia running out frm the main gate,he
started chasing after her..after a few min of chasing..he caught up with
her.. she was crying and so he asked why..she
said dat she did not want to become a burden to him and dont want to spoil his reputation and bein made fun of by his peeps..be4 she could finished her
sentence..he stop her and kiss her cheek sayin i love u and HE MEANT IT..
eventually,she stopped crying..and mike said"we will neer be separated...nth
can come between us!" 5 months time------------------------------------------
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julia found that she was feeling terrible by her heart problem..mike sent her for check up often,so dat she can get well ASAP and they can get on
their date smoothly,but never will he noe that her illness is gettin more and more serious as days went on...one day,mike received a call frm julia's mother.............
"julia is in a bad condition now,it may be fatal..come here quickly..." so mike took a cab and went to the hospital...the doctor told mike dat julia had only a 30% chance of surviving...he was devastated..he den ask the doctor if he could do anything to help her? and so de doctor replied to him..........and they went on havin a operation...

6 hours later-------------------------

"julia,julia..are u feeling ok?"said her mom...
julia started opening her eyes..
"yeah im alright,feeling much better already...mom,where's mike?is he here in the hospital?i miss him so much!"
"u must be prepared to hear this.........he donated his heart to u juz to save u,and it caused his life...he had passed away..."

julia was shocked..she cried non- stop,feeling bad and guilty every day...
mike truly love her,and jus wanted to save her,but it had cause him to leave
the world so soon... Now and forever... his heart will be hers'and they can never be separate...

2006-11-22T23:32:00.000+08:00

As it begin.....

Yest went out wif my frenz, ctie fer an interview at bugis as in admin asst...
Kinda nervous bt end up all mess up..many kinda confusing qns they askd..n e interview was lyke fuck up.argh! really had no confident at all.. e werkin hrs was too long further more e salary was haix..its was a very stressful job..bt had tiz kinda feeling tat my frenz,ctie will gt tat job bt in e other hand she dnt want it..she refuse..coz she prefer werkin as sales asst that tiz job..haha..
After tat we went fer our dinner... i ate mee soto wif peach tea fer my drink while ctie ate mee revus wif peach tea fer her drinks...then chat fer a while abt out relationships n etc..after tat proceed to bugis junction...wanna shop bt no more so no else to go we went to the toilet..haha...then hangout ard bugis there n cont wif our conversation...givin advice to each other makes us feel stronger n confident..thanx ctie fer ur help n advice really appreciate it....itz been long we havent seen each other n hav tiz little chat...really miz her...hope we met up sum other tyme aytez...so tatz all fer today dunno watelse to sae..jt hav a glimpse of our photos aytez...toodlez~

Am i tat innocent? haha..

2006-11-02T20:42:00.000+08:00

Mondae was an absolute enjoyful dae..All my mother side came to my houz..im so happie..coz i close to them..althought kak ida nt wif us..bt she will alwaes b remembered..chebah! hahah..aniwei..met them all up at long jamil houz...which is at tamp...after tat proceed to my houz...Very e kecoh...Cik salmah family, cik enon alone.kak nur n husband,long tijah n family....Since atok pass away nt everydae we gt to gether lyke tiz...dont wanna sae much jt look at e photo below..
As fer todae..it already 2 daes i cnt band down,sit as pernormal,sleep as pernormal n sit as pernormal.My back bone pain...BERCINTA nk bgn,jln n etc...mcm org lumpur..teruk sey aku...tapi lepas my father urut,aru ok..if nt tkleh jn terus..bt still back bone gettin more pain..argh!!... gt to knw my back bone gt abit slant..argh!! there it goes again!! haix...

~My Bro n My Aunt,cik salmah~

~E not So handsome cameraman..(my bro =p)

~E Jambuz~ hahaha Me N Sis Nur..eew..i look so fat n awful..:(

~My Bro,Me,Sis Nur n her Husband,abg Wan~

~N Lastly E Big Family..Luv them soo much..~ =)

2006-10-30T13:07:00.000+08:00

~SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN~

TO ALL E MUSLIMS OUT THERE~

Aniwei its almost 2mths im neva update my blog..soo..here it goes..
during fasting mth nuthin much act...staying at hm..cleanin up wat is needed..baking cakes...chit chatting n etc..jrg kluar..kebynkkan duduk rumah..dunno where else to go..some of my frenz bz werking..so most proberly spent alot of tyme wif my lappy...doesnt feel lyke bloggin..dunno y..bla bla bla..DRAG!!!

Ferst dae of raya as usual visiting e olderst houz..met all my cuzzy,auntie n uncle...kecoh! setahun skali bkn slalu cm gni kn..haha...then dpt duit collection..haha..jgn ingat da besar gni tkleh dpt..hellO! still young ok! =p hee! nuthin interesting..jt kunjung mengujung jek..visited 5 houz on e ferst dae raya..2nd dae raya nt guin anywhere coz tetamu nk dtg...same goes to 3rd raya..my cuzzy aishah came wif her family...sempat take pic wif her..haha..

on e 4th raya...which on saturday...its was my open houz dae..haha..bnyk tetamu dtg..sungguh memenat kn..majority my 2nd brother frenz..my dearie came too..=). sedara mara only cik acid n family,cik pipi n family n last at nite atok nenek..hehe...mcm2 makanan my mum cook..bt still not satisfied me..nk siput sedut!! :'(..my dad leh terlupe lak tu nk beli...sakit sey hati..bt nvm lain hari ade pe...so dunno watelse to say...jt hav a glimpse at e pic below..toodlez~ *wink*

~aishah n me~ ~Ita n Me~

~Mee siam goreng~ ~Sambal Udang~

~Rendang Daging~ ~Lemak Lodeh~

~Ayam Masak Merah~

Cik Pipi n Family

~ Me N My Lil Cuzzy Nazirah~

~Me N Him~

~ My Bro N His Werk Frenz~

~Cik Acid N Family~

~Kak Lena n Husband wif Cik \Ari n Family~

~N lastly My Atok N Nenek~

2006-09-24T18:12:00.000+08:00

Wanna Wish All The Muslim
Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadan Mubarak
Selamat Berpuasa!!!

Puasa Jangan Tk Puasa!!hee!:p

2006-09-11T14:58:00.000+08:00

Very e long tyme i neva update...Almost ferget abt my blog..aniwei..Im nt bz wif sum stuff act..itz jt tat im totally fergotten abt my blog..serious..get hook wif sum other stuff,blogger out frm my mind..hmm..watever itz is let me share wif ya wat happen on tat sat..

Went out wif yana,dee n halizah...Celebrating dee belated b'dae...Met up yana n e rest at Suntec Coffee Bean..haha..guez wat...i lost! kwang kwang kwang.... alotzsa tyme i went there still cn lost..sungguh memalukn...carik i2 coffee bean mcm nk giler..wat i cn c is Starbuck..hahaha...bt nvm take tiz as an experience..hahaha...MCM FAHAM! Kol yana nd help frm her..she really pissd off n stress wif me.hahaha..sbr jela gerl...aku kn aru alek dari CALIFORNIA..hahahahaha....MERAP siak faezah...Sowie aytez gerl fer troubling u..hee!! Susah sgt i met her at e ferst starbuck coffee..Rupa2nye e coffee bean was at e other tower...duhh!! Cm org bodoh msk suntec mall carik...

Reach there met zack n e rest off them..yana wanna gt a free drinks n cakes sanggup turun sane..Semangat...B'dae gerl was late..ahakz...dgr2 die pn sesat..hee! Kecian...! After spending almost an hr there tunggu kn si mat rap & Nailul finish werk..we all went straight to douby ghaut..c movie at CATHAY..hehe..ferst tyme go there cm jakun g2...kesian eh...bt still cn ctrl babe...Act i dunno watz e act plan is...i jt follow whenever they wanna go.. end up all mess up..b'dae gerl mst b hm by 9..bt e movie started at 740pm.. too bad they buy e tickets already..b'dae gerl cnt join us..sowie fer tat b'dae gerl...hope ya lyke it e present..frm me n yana..=) after b'dae gerl n halizah went off..we all chillin outside cathay abt 1hr 40 mins..
kita tgk citer LITTLE MAN! Citer nye gerek n kelakar giler..u guyz shld watch it..seriously...tk rugi..itz worth it!haha..
Ard 9+ e movie ended..iqa n fad their frenz was waitin dwnstairs.. chillin outside cathay fer an hr coz dunno where to go..then of to P.S..too bad i cnt join them...kejar tyme n kejar bus..tamp side e bus cpt habez.BORIN!! n e other hand i must b hm b4 12am...tatz my tyme limit... take train n off to tamp..gt one bangla SS c me lyke wat g2..mcm mau bagi jek aku..tersengeh-sengeh...yuck man! he look n stare at me,i stare back..itz quite sumtymez i stare him..gav him one look..he gav up n turn 2 e other side..caught him c gerls breast..alamak! cm nk ketok jek i2 bangla babi...geram sey...bt lucky he alight at tanah merah...pheew! reach tamp saw my worst enemy..RAFIDAH! tk habez2 ngan baju pink dea,slipper pink,earings pink,hp pink,eye shadows pink,blusher pink..Alamak..tkleh ang sey si minah pink tu..c me lyke wanna eat me ,summore show her jealous face clearly at me..ape siak maksud dea..over heard she complain at her BESTFRENZ ,Ashikah.."eh,aku npk faezah,step siak dea" wen i heard tat i look at her she pretend nt to c me..bbl cm bbl ngan matair siak..lesbian i think..eeeeeeeee!!! stop it la...im ur worst enemies,im out frm ur frendlist..aku tk ganggu hidup ko pe..wat else u want frm me? knape mesti nk sakit hati? knape mesti nk jealous? diri aku,my life,my face,my body,my hair aku nye suke ar...cm sial ar..tk suke uat tk suke jgn nk kpo ambek tahu hal org..i hatez tiz kind of pplz..major plastics,two-faces,n watever fucking shit ar...mampos tk nk...haix...take bus 293 coz 29 end at 1145 n i mizz e bus..take 293 reach hm almost 12am..pheew!!

2006-09-03T02:10:00.000+08:00

Hope im nt making a wrg move..me n him together nw..yes..hope tiz happines will last 4ever..i cnt bare to gt hurtz again..consider tiz was his last chance...no more other chance...since my family happy im wif him n im happy too..i dnt care wat pplz wanna think or talk abt us..itz my decision..n i hope i wont make a mistake in accepting him..n hopefully tiz was e ferst n e last tyme.No more breaking up,gt hurtz n all e stupid thinggy..lyke wat my frenz,fauziah,said jt follow ur heart n accept him by his changes...follow ur heart n mind..take tiz as an experience..yes i did..i do still luv him n i cnt hide tat feelings anymore...trusting him is hard fer me..coz if i trust him 100% i'll gt hurtz lyke wat e past old daes he did to me...n i dnt want tat to happen again....So Mr Hafidz I hope u cn show me more of ur changes n prove it to me tat u r sincere n thoughtful to me...tiz was ur last chance...well,jt wait n c watz gonna happen wif my life..Happy? Sad? Lovin It? i dunno...toodlez~

2006-09-02T03:43:00.000+08:00

Hey there,
Hw r u guyz? :p
I knw i've nt updated my blog tiz few daez..
Im jt had no mood to update..
3 daes not at hm..
Overnite at west side..
Ada kenduri arwah..
Geez! My grandfather had pass away since 29 aug 2006
Jt cnt believe he left all of us...
Cn sae im quite close to atok..
Luv to hear his stories during past old daes..hehe..kinda funny..
Although he's old bt his memories still strong...
He luv to c Bujang Lapok comedies series..
Sad hes gone..
Pitty fer my aunty whom has takin care of my grandfather fer almost 2 yrs..
She still cnt accepted tat atok has pass away...We knw hw she feel..
Tapi alhamdulillah,semuanya da selesai..Atok selamat dikebumikn..
Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkn bersama para solihin..AMIN!

2006-08-27T17:41:00.000+08:00

Met ctie at Raffles Place yest ard 1+ fer an interview at oub centre as in Customer Service Officer..Kinda nervous..I really need a job n money..e interview overall was ok..too many qns i askd..hopefully e interviewer wont feel irritated..haha..watever..
then off to far east..haha..eat at e NANA THAI..mcm tk ade tmpt lain g2 eh nk mkn..hee! I ordered Crispy Noodle while ctie ordered Tom Yam Noodles...after tat went to hiren brought e long dress tat she dream off..nice!..bt watever! my salary cumin soon...w/o futher adoom..off to queensway..wanna brought my dream shoes,slip-on..n yes i brought one..hee! e ori price was $20+ bt i gt it ard $19.90 hee! ctie brought one too bt she brought e other shoes lady2 type of shoes..=) etul nye shoppin sey i2 anak! Take a tour awhile ard queensway then went hm..ctie hav to met her boyfrend while me jt straight home...tk mrt straight to tamp..rech there gt tyme to go esprit..brought myself tank-top..searching fer e black colour bt cnt c any of it..so i jt brought white instead..i even brought sum SUSHI...hee! luv sushi to e max..then went straight hm..thought of takin a bus near tampines library..on e wae saw WATSON..went in n brought myself Biore facial wash...e manager there kinda hensem bt hes remind me of FARIL...were has he been..haix..out from watson n there tiz one guy standin outside c me lyke neva seen a gerl b4..wat e hack! hellO! ur wife inside wif ur son buying sum stuff n u outside tryin 2 b'come a PIMP?! GT A LIFE! guy tiz daes..so weird! watever...w/o turning back i jt off frm there..reach hm ard 8..haha..early sia..TOODLEZ!

||Lesson Of Life||

2006-08-20T18:27:00.000+08:00

hey,been surfin net lately..nuthin much to do..n guez wat..i found tiz n decided 2 share it wif u guyz...quite interesting..bt tatz sumthg we cn learn abt life...check it out!

The Healing Art of Paying Attention
Rejection hurts. Attention heals. There are four things which will increase anyone’s capacity to respond to this basic need in others.

Learn to listen deeply. The art of paying attention involves stretching out your mind and heart and focusing on the other person with all the intensity and awareness that you can command.

Teach your ego to hold its breath. All of us are self-centred much of the time. Each of us is an actor intent on trying to impress an audience or hold the spotlight. But if you want to pay close attention to another human being, that is precisely what you must not do. You have to train your own attention-hungry ego to take a back seat. You have to stop striving for the spotlight and let it fall on the other person.

Practice patience. Paying close attention is not a matter of offering snap judgments. Often it’s a question of waiting, listening, standing by until the person you’re paying attention to works out his own salvation.

Be concerned. There’s no use paying attention—or pretending to pay attention—to a person unless you honestly care about that person, unless you are willing to share his pains and problems, unless you want to help him solve his difficulties and can rejoice with him when he does. The capacity to project concern lies at the heart of all deep and lasting human relationships. And the marvellous thing about it is that once the unhappy person feels that somebody cares about him, he is often able to begin caring more about others. Love liberates love—it’s as direct and miraculous as that. —Donald E. Smith

2006-08-19T19:42:00.000+08:00

I jt cnt help it...itz been long we break up..bt still contactin each other..2 b admitted we still luv each other...hatein each other is a commen after breakin up..bt dunno y tiz feelings cnt wash away...he promise me he'll changed n tried a million waez 2 gt me back..geez! Itz hard 2 trust his promise..coz by e word promise hurtz me alotz..after wat he had done 2 me fer e past..he makes me back 2 my past old fckin attitude...bt i tried nt to...ryte nw my life changed..happy whenever he kol me or msg me..cn c his changes..miz him wen theres no sign of him..argh! i dunno..really drive me crazy thinkin abt all tiz stuff..dnt wanna gt hurtz again..im tired..n almostly gav up on havin a relationship N EVEN hard 2 TRUST GUYZ..been fool,bustard,hurtz n etc all tat i hav been through..n yes! itz really damn hurtz..only god knws hw i feel! Accept him back was hard fer me..nw cn sae tat he's changed,willing 2 do watever shit 2 gt me back aS if itz sound lyke he's loyal 2 me, bt i dnt wanna all tiz fer jt e begin due of wanna took my heart away after gt wat he wants e changes back 2 worst...n there again cryin,hurtz all start all over again...i dnt want tat thinggy happen again...I do still luv him..yes! i cnt hide tat feelings anymore..we been 2gether fer abt 3yrs+ then jt break off lyke tat w/o a valid reason..
I knw itz sound stupid if i accept him after all e shit he had done to me...bt tat wat u called LIFE...if u really luv sumone u cnt bare 2 loose him or hatez him...if only u gerls were in my shoes im sure u gerls will feel hw i feel ryte nw...i tried so hard 2 fergt him. tried 2 makez alotsa guy frenz,spent tyme more wif my gerl n guy frenz..tryin 2 b happen..n yes i did..bt whenever im alone i'll start thinkin of him..missing him...all e stuff n prezzie he gav me i still kept nt only tat i even wore it...wanna throw it bt itz so precious to me...only stupid pplz throw all tiz thinggy..haix! sumtymez in my mind i kept thinkin r we faith to b 2gether? coz watever we did is mostly e same thing..althought we hurtz each other n even we already break apart bt c we still lyke couplez..luv each other..itz only tat we dnt hav e tittle or status IN A RELATIONSHIP! I dunno,i jt need tyme n space to think abt it..im tired n stress up...i jt wanna b alone fer awhile..GOD PLZ HELP ME! haix...:(

2006-08-18T20:54:00.000+08:00

Jt came back from NUH..visitin my grandfather,geez! glad he's ok..e operation guin smoothly..BUT he nd another operation due of another thinggy (dunnoe wat itz call :p).Tatz e dangerous part...Dunno wen e operation will began.My grandfather started 2 eat already.Heard frm my auntie he havent east fer e past 3 daes coz he jt finish frm operation so dnt wanna cause any damaged...so far he's ok!

I was sitting downstairs after havin my lunch..came tiz 3 teenagers.1 gerl 2 guyz. Sit in front of me...they were smilling at me..so i smile back.. seein me alone there,there came e gerl sit b'side me..suprise fer awhile! she started e conversation..introducing herself..guez wat she said, hi! im fazura, u alone here? visiting who? me rply,hi! nope..me wif my mum..bt she's up stairs..visitin my grandfather...she said,oic! akak nie tgl mane? AKAK? u gt it? she kol me kakak..gez! am i lookz mature enough? im only 19 k..guez wat,she's 21..gosh! Itz was so embarassing!She told me i dnt look lyke 19, i look lyke ard 20s.. ard 20s? if she's 21 then she must b thinkin tat im 23 or 24..eeuuww! tatz old sey! tk nk aku! hmmm....so mature sey...bt she said sorry indeed! hee...
told my mum abt it..she laugh at me..argh! jahat sey...

Aniwei,feelin moody lately fer e past few daes..i dunnoe y..guez b'coz tiz few daes im been at hm..nowhere 2 go..all my frenzie bz werkin..so jt accompany my mum 2 e hosp...nuthin much act..life back 2 e past..boring! Bored stayin at hm..nd 2 find job a.s.a.p...
Life so miserable, my dad been necglin at me coz of sum thinggy..itz really hurtz me..haix..jt let him b..im tired..i even understand him..i jt need tyme...my mum as usual sumtymez gd sumtymez bad..giler2 la..bt watever,they still my parents..sabar jek! If only i had sumone tat cn understand me n alwaez b there fer me,i cld jt let it all out...been thinkin 2 much,stressin myself n watever shit it is..wish cld die nw..bt tat was a stupid idea..haix..seriously blogger is a place fer me 2 release my tension,sumthg happen 2 me, or i had a crush or sumone lykes me n even abt relationship n frenship 2 blog wif if i want to..abt e personal life of mine n etc i wld rather kept it 2 myself..itz nt appropriate bloggin here..here was jt an entertainment fer me..e stupid n crazy stuff i did ntat happen 2 me..tatz all..needed a diary fer myself bt in e other hand im lazy 2 wrote it..haha..giler! so i wld jt prefer kept it 2 myself...ryte nw im missin sumone..sumone out there..who? jt mind ur business! ahakz..jk! fer me 2 knw fer u 2 find out...*wink*! TOODLEZ~

2006-08-15T22:31:00.000+08:00

Been lazy myself ard at hm...nuthin much 2 do..boreddem at hm? OF COZ! Helpin out my mummy sum houz werk...then lepakz sane sini kt katil..i was lyke sum one who is jobless..nuthin betta to do...LAZY! argh! GILER! Jt need sum space fer myself..2 much thinkin drive me crazy...STRESS! stress wif tiz designin thinggy..i hav done e logos thinggy bt nw came another stupid n complicated,confused thinggy 2 be done...geez! thought beein designer is easy...bt way 2 far frm my imaginary...need 2 knw many tactics 2 made e pic looks perfect..itz sound easy i knw,bt wen ur turn 2 do it,surely u hav givin up tat fast...wat to do,lyke it or nt i hav to do it...nt fer free,gt paid! i need money! althought i havent find e job fer myself,atleast i hav a werk 2 do..cn so call tiz my part-tyme job...itz better than im lazy ards 4ever at hm..wanna wait fer gettin a job,itz took a long tyme....nowadays,itz nt easy 2 gt a job...esp office...itz hard! geez! all i cn do nw is jt 2 b patient..find job slow..take tymez..who knws one dae,sumdae i cn gt a perfect job fer myself..wouldnt knw!

2006-08-12T14:32:00.000+08:00

Oh great! i dnt knw wat happen 2 me ryte nw...been awake by my stupid stomach...sudden painful attack at my stomach..thought it was normal..bt itz gettin bad 2 worst..haix..da 2 tk psl... out of sudden im havin fever n flu now...it was a sudden shock..yest sihat giler...wen comes 2dae, i was lyke half dead...haix..giler!!
guez i hav 2 cancel all e plan fer 2dae la...haiseyman...!! BORIN!!!

Bt luckily hav zul..chattin wif him at msn jt nw..well,overall i cn sae,he's frendly, kind..VERY! kinda quiet type of person..a good counceller.. caring n etc la..atleast im nt bored enough...thanx 2 him fer willin 2 hear my probz..thanx alot fer his advice...hee! nuthin much interesting act..jt enjoyin my sickness n cleanin up my room abit...tatz all! TOODLEZ~

2006-08-10T23:44:00.000+08:00

Off frm hm ard 12+..met ctie at kallang at abt 1+...then straight 2 Tanjong Pagar fer an interview at dunno watz e company name....Waited fer anis 2 came...then off 2 e interview..hmm...quite alotz of teenagers.e handsome2 n e jambuz2..doesnt look fer a qualification bt look fer our attitude...act i hav no comment abt tiz company n job..jt waited fer my frenzzie,ctie n anis go fer their 2nd interview 2morrow 2 knw more details...

At abt 3+,We went 2 hq at ct hall 2 returns our watsons uniform..anis nt following coz she has a child 2 take care off...after givin all e thinggy,we went 2 marina 2 eat...HUNGRY...VERY2 HUNGRY!! Searchin fer atm machine was lyke walkin frm east 2 west...da la lapar nk mampos tk ade duit tkleh mkn pe...searchingnye searching n atlast we found it..at e second floor near e arcade n bowling area...padahal tk jauh sey..only org bodoh cm kita jek carik jln jauh...aiyo... then off 2 CAVANA...E food there nt bad..quite nice...i ate black pepper beef spaghetti wif water chestnut drinks..yummy! delicious...n ctie ate sambal chicken wings rice (if im nt wrg..hee!).. while eatin ctie askd me whether i wanna go suntec fer awhile coz wanna mit her frenzzie..i dnt mind..sudden,i think abt e 2 guyz..kol yana whether they 2 werkin or nt..NO! they nt werkin..ok cool! hee!thought wanna visit fer awhile mit matrap who knws cn gt free drinks...kuang kuang kuang....after all done..full already..off 2 suntec..didnt realise tat M MATRAP wif NAILUL was eatin at e same place wif us....shocked wen sumone kol me....guez who? MATRAP ar! thought of wanna stop n talk fer a while wif him bt then wen i saw HIM...tkpela..thanx ar eh...i straight away walk away...hehe...tk sanggup aku! keep thinkin confirm they think tat aku nie sombong..watever! was lil bit shock n didnt expected 2 mit them...sumore askd yana abt them bt they were jt behind me..ish! wat a small world..kaka...
then proceed 2 suntec...cldnt find ctie frenzzie...mayb they all resign already..then went mango shop then straight off 2 bugis....Meetin her frenzzie again! okla,nt tat frenly ar..bt they still talks n smile..bt..dunno ar...da roundin2 they decided 2 go 2 TM...searchin sum thinggy..i was lyke,ok! no prob..hmm...dunno tat dae i gt 2 mit so many pplz....hehe..
while walkin straight 2 tm..on e wae..saw sumone tat lookz familiar..askd ctie,she said e same 2... wanna closer look ctie pull me 2 e guy there..n yes..cukup knl...itz was FARIL!! haha...he wif his frenzzie......same goes didnt expected all thiz gonna happen...talk fer a while then wen 2 TM..AGAIN!! i met AFIT!! wif his MINAH! I guez....he was nt quite happy wen saw me wif faril..so wat! gav tat 1 kind of look at me..watz e motive..n watz e meaning? cnt b bother 2 find e ans...after tat shopping fer awhile,faril frenzzie off ferst 2 mit their gerlfrenz...while ctie n her frenzzie wanna off 2...left me n him...soooo happy!!! finally...kuang3.,...dunno where else 2 go he brought me 2 century square 2 eat...hee! while seein e menu,sum1 split e water accidentally...kena abit at my blouse n shoes...surprisingly didnt knw faril b'come angry tat wae ryte after tat guy askd me... hehe...very surprise!!...watever it is thanx so much fer wat he did... hehe...itz nt easy nk pujuk dea ok! after eatin,we went hm..he werkin 2morrow mornin ar..take cab,he paid of coz, go hm ar....reach hm...9+ early? yes,very early...

2006-08-09T23:30:00.000+08:00

Wake up early in e mornin.preparing myself n sum stuff...then off 2 haigh rd wif my mummy... feelin abit uncomfortable. "rase tk sdp hati"...coz i'll b givin my resignation letter TODAE! yupz!! shockin? hee..out of sudden i quit..aniwei fer ya info im e last 2 resign yest was my 2 frenz already givin it..haha..e reason y? itz personal..cnt b bother 2 repeat it n refresh back...wat past is past...we dnt feel guilty,sad,regret n etc..we jt feel HAPPY!! No more burden,no more stressful,no more suck blood..NO MORE! Im free nw..n hope they satisfied wif all tiz... especially HER!!
Fer e moment,i nd a tyme break..dnt wanna think abt findin other job ferst...nd 2 relax myself n my mind...2 much thinkin...haix..miss my bed n my lovely pillow so much...cn spend tyme more wif them..kaka...nw my mum hav less burden..cn help her duin house werk..cookin esp!! love to try new receipe...blajar masak nanti da kahwin sng...laki tk lari..kuang kuang kuang....cm faham!! hee!

Btw jt wanna wish all SINGAPOREAN...HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!

2006-07-30T15:51:00.000+08:00

Im off 2 dae!! Wee~ Tyme showz 3:45 pm..guez wat? I jt woke up!! Kuang kuang kuang... Tired sia..No tyme 2 rest n atlast gt 2 rest in peace...hee! Lucky hav adeq..He woke me up by sms..haha..askin whether im werkin 2dae..y? miz me izzit? hahaha...
Nuthin much 2do 2dae..im alone at hm..everyone went out...i wanna go out bt dunno wer 2 go n wif who..wanna askd my lil sis out bt she's werkin 2dae...haix..wanna askd afit out bt...watever ar wif him dnt wanna sae..argh! STRESS!! alone at hm drive me crazy..nuthin 2do..so boring...
Aniwei been editting sum thinggy at my blog..khekhe..Luv jasmine so much..dunno y eh... Crazy jasmine stuff..Geez! Who will b my aladdin eh? *thinkin*..Stop ur crapz faezah! Guez tatz all i cn post nuthin much 2 sae.im off nw..wanna take a bath n prepare watz nxt im gonna do..mayb im guin out..wif who? dunno...haha..rubbish! TOODLEZ~

2006-07-29T23:55:00.000+08:00

Surprise! Very surprisingly....While doin closing wif eric jt nw adeq passby me n gav me one kind of smile..tk pernah2 ko mcm g2 deq..hmm...so i smile back wif a confusing n a BIG qnsmark??!!! Wat was tat man!! After everythg done bla bla bla..as usual went out at e back door pass banquet n theres adeq smilling at me cn so call waiting fer me..i dunno wat his motive ar...he called me..

Adeq: Kak eza..hehe (smillin) Sini jap..
Me: (Smile) Huh? Nk ape?
Adeq: Cni ar..i gt sumthg fer ya..
Me: Huh? ape benda??
Adeq: Nah! fer u..Specially fer u!
Me: Huh?????? Fer me? Tiz is fer me? U Serious?
Adeq: Yupz..
Me: Ape mimpi siak ko kasi aku tiz thinggy?
Adeq: Ala..ambil jela jgn bnyk tanye..
Me: Mesti ar..Nk tau wats ya motive givin me tiz..Nie mesti ade pape tau...
Adeq: Tk ade pape la..Saje2 nk kasi kak eza nie benda..
Me: Hmm..ko kasi ke org lain kasi nie? Baek ko ckp etul2..
Adeq:Hehehhehe...Sumpah kak! Nie adeq yg kasi no otherz..
Me: hmm..papela kn...aniwei thanx eh...Cantik ar..
Adeq: Make sure pakai tau jgn tk pakai...
Me: Ok! Kla gtg..t.c..pape msg k..
Adeq: Ok sis...bye!!

Hmm...dunno watz his motive act givin me tiz thinggy..he brought it frm Taka Jewellery..Nice! Sumore he askd me 2 wear it jgn tk wear..ape hal sey si bdk kecik 2..lain mcm jek..aniwei.. happy 2 gt a thinggy frm adeq..miz him lotz sey long tyme neva c him..wen gt 2 c he throwin face 2 me then out of sudden he gav me thinggy..tk ke pelik 2..hmm..ape2 la deq..thank u so much!!

Gt my salary 2dae!! Wee~ Cnt wait 2 go shopping..hee! Brought adidas bag jt nw wif my own money!! Brought Nivea Whitening Milk n Sylveria Nail polish..nowadays i luv 2 colour my nails dunno y...Btw 2dae my last dae werkin wif eric startin frm mondae i'll b werkin under kak rynna shift..Mati aku!! Cnt wait fer her 2 Berambz..!! i want FARIL 2 came here ASAP!! Hee!!

2006-07-28T23:20:00.000+08:00

Nuthin much happenin 2dae...jt gt abit sad frm adeq..saw me neva said hi nor smile jt walk lyke tat wif jelingan dia..haix..hav i done sumthg wrg 2 ya? hmm..watever it is tat thinggy jt pt aside...not so important..

Heard frm kak laila tat we gonna hav a new SUP wen e dae kak rynna take leave fer 3mths due of givin birth...wee~ Our new SUP is a GUY n he is MALAY!! yahoo!!! atlast!! Im e very frst person who saw him ferst a few mths back..yupz!! He's e one wif a descent lookz n so attractive..thought tat he is a chinese guy..gt 2 knw frm kak rynna n kak laila tat he is a malay....punye la happy gilerr!! Sumore he gonna b our SUP soon...suke banget!!!!!
Jt nw he came 2 our place..haha...damn shockd n happy 2 c him..lalala....hes so cute..khekhe.. bt tiz tyme he's very e nonsence..descent nonsence...wakaka...askd kak laila his name..guez wat..his name is FARIL..ferst thought it was FARID..2 reconfirm i askd him myself..haha...GATAL!! he's a SUp frm S'pore post!kak rynna askd me 2 bring him 2 our office coz he did nt knw where..on e wae chit chattin abit wif him...haha...wee~ suke tk terkata sey...

Faril: Awak da berape lame keje cni?
Me: 3 mths + aru jugak la..awak?
Faril: ouh..kita aru 1mth+ lagik baru..hehe..
Me: ouh..hee!
Faril: Name siape?
Me: Nurfaezah (showin my badge)
Faril: Nice name...me Faril..cm dkt g2 eh name..*smile*
Me: Shy smile* hehe..a'ah eh...

hahaha...tatz my ferst lil conversation wif him..shy gilernye!! after showin him our office room gt back 2 werk..lotzsa thinggy 2 do stock cum already..aiyoo..pening kepale ooo...cnt stop smillin laughin sey ryte after meetin him..over excited!!nt tat 100% concertratin on my werk..hehe..
abt 1/2 hr past..kak laila came 2 me..she askd me wat did i talk 2 him jt nw..

Kak laila: Ape ko bbl kt 2 jantan
Me: jantan? ish! tk baek sey dia ade name tau..FARIL
Kak laila: wah! mrh npk! da pandai eh skg..
Me: Mesti ar mrh...he's mine..ahahahakz..(perasan)
Kak Laila: tk tau malu...
Me: wakakaka.. malu rugi pe
Kak laila: ko bbl ape la kt die beruang..
Me: Nuthin interestingla..jt a lil chit chat jek..die tanye brape lame keje cni n wats my name jek..i2 jek..asl?
Kak Laila: tk ade tanye jek...he's askin fer ya no..bt i dnt gav it..nk mintak sendiri..
Me: Huh!!!??? (shocked gilerr) he askin fer my no? biar etul sey...im nt dreaming ke?
Kak Laila: Etul la beruang..aku nk bedek uat ape...bkn dpt pape
Me: (BIG SMILE) hehehe...asl kak laila tk kasi jek..kasi jela..tk pyh nk suruh tanye ke ape..lelaki g2 me alryte jek..lain kali kasi jela...:(
kak laila: ewah! gatal sungguh staff aku yg satu nie..MIYANG! Dia nk mintak sendiri ar..ko ingat aku ape..tukar passing2 no? hmph!
Me: alah!..apela kak nie...spoil ar..
kak laila: (membebel non-stop)bla bla bla..btw dia kirim salam kt korg semua..
Me: wa'alaikumsalam......

haix..aiseymen...miz e chance again..nvm tk lame lagik he will b transferin here..cnt wait end of august..kak rynna chow he's in..wee~

Aniwei tat fri after werk i went 2 BP coz my lovely sis nur married! 2bad i came late fer e nikah...finish werk 530 g2 gni reach hm nearly 2 bath prepare a cake fer her showin a congratz 2 her, gt ready my thinggy clothz n etc coz i'll b overnyte there..Went there wif my father n my uncle...kluar rumah 8+ reach there nearly 9..aiseyman...e angkat nikah is over already...heard tat abg wan lafazkn 1 kali jek..chebah! Terror!! hahah...Sis nur u lookz so gourgeous on tat dae...preety u!! aniwei dunt wanna sae much jt lookz at e picz below..sum of it steal frm sis nur blog..hehe..sowie...nk complete kn la....hee!

Tiz is e cake tat i made fer her..nt tat nice bt e taste was superb...hee! Chocolate nutella wif oreo,cherry n nutz topping..yummy!!

Cantik kn tempat taruk cincinnye..!!

E exchange gift frm him to her..Pinkish!!

Everythg PINK!!

E most beautifull dress she wear...very preety! Really lookz lyke cinderella...!! Jealous gueh! Mcm nk kahwin gak ar..Nk wear Jasmine dress ar frm aladdin!! Bluekz!

2006-07-20T21:33:00.000+08:00

I dunno watz happen wif my life nw...y must i b tiz wae? y must i alwayz deserve tiz?
Well,jt ou of sudden i felt tiz wae..decided 2 share through my blog. Felt lyke bit by bit pplz runnin awae frm me..as in avoidin me...WHAT I HAV DONE WRG? Whenver i tried 2 b nice 2 e person,sayin e truth therez alwaes enemies..Y? Y? Y? Y? I dnt hav any intension 2 do tat..Izzit wrg fer me 2 sae e truth? izzit wrg fer me 2 b nice? FRENZ? Talkin abt frenz...i dnt hav best frenz.Bt i hav my sister..Fauziah N Liana..They both were my best buddies..I treasure them much...They 2 r 2 n only my frenzzie...No otherz..Esp liana,she understand me alotz...Y my life suffer tiz wae? I dnt wanna loose any frenz of mine...Anis n siti were my werk frenz.Jamilah is 1 n only my sec schl frenz.Dla is my gd frenz. Once i lost anyone of them i'll loose all....Nw i lost dla,who nxt i will b lost? Buat baek salah,buat jahat salah...No happy life fer me...My beloved ex, hafidz has left me,i hav no 1 in my life...NO ONE CN UNDERSTAND ME! All tiz has been written..I was born nt 2 hav a happy life...Whenever i luv sum1 treasure them much..sumthg bad will happen..Thanx alotz....

* Miz my frenzzie DLA...R we gonna continue beein tiz wae 4ever?

2006-07-16T22:49:00.000+08:00

Hey! i grb tiz quiz frm sis nur blog..my fav disney is JASMINE n guez wat..i tried tiz quiz n e result reveal tiz:-
You Are Jasmine!
Independent and adventurous. You don't want much; just to break out of the guilded cage society has put you in and experience life to the fullest. Following orders isn't really one of your strong points, and you would rather live a life of poverty than being forced into something that you hate.

Geez! Itz true! hatez beein force wif sumthg tat i hatez...!! N yes i am JASMINE..WEE~

Which Disney Princess Are You?

2006-07-15T04:17:00.000+08:00

A story has a beginnin n has an end..Here my life tyme story wen havin a relationship...

Itz started durin sec 2 wer i ferst learnin 2 hav a bf..yupz!
Itz was a chattin yrs...There is wer i tried 2 gt 2 knw guyz..CHAT ROOM!!
Saiful Ramlan was e ferst person who step into my life...
Lovin is wat he is bt understandin wae 2 far...We broke off in a silent wae..
Avoidin me is wat he does..watever..life hav 2 go on..cinta monyet!
Mohd izzat came by into my life in e middle of sadness after realising tat im off wif saiful.
Sad2 thinggy he did e same thgz as saiful did...Haix..life sux..cryin non stop is wat i did fer my life tyme...Knwin ta im nerd,ugly dark skins n watever yuckz tatz cn pt in me..Tried so hard 2 find e true luv of mine..yazzid is e one has i ever wanted bt therez a missing thinggy..e truth...he lied 2 me everythg abt him...hatez it! guyz sux..yupz.....tiz tyme im e 1 who askd fer a break up...
as usual life has 2 go on...sec 2 i alreadi hav 3 ex nt 2 fergt include tiz fella muhd affil johan johari.. he's e so called a ferst person tat i hav a longest relationship...gav me a confident in my life...cherish me..accept me e wae i am..doesnt look fer e ouside cover bt lookin fer e inner cover...really luv him tat much so does he bt human bein has feelings up n down rytez? itz started abt me..i hav another feelings wif another guy who name was khairil..yupz..im a bustard type of person tat tyme...easy gt influence by a sweet talk mafck..b'coz of him i decided 2 break up wif affil tats has been wif him 3 mths...stupid of me!! wae 2 stupid..Carry on my life wif him (khairil)...Didnt knw hez tryin 2 take advantage of me...he's a PEVERT! He gav me everythg n pretend 2 b loyal,understanding,thoughtful n etc jt in order 2 gt a retrn back frm me by usin my body..wat e hell!!! our relationship lastin jt fer a 2wks..then off!! all tiz was a silent break up frm him..coz he cnt managed 2 gt my body...fck!!guez wat..tk serik2 havin relationship although has been bustard fer so many tymez.Same tyme same place knwin my 6th ex haha...Naseer..hmm old skul sey name..kaka..same as my 4th ex lastin jt fer 3mths exact due of unctrl hot-tempered of mine..and a very strong jealousy of mine!!hehe...there..i stop havin relationship..cnt help it gt bustard n beein bustard...Need 2 forcus my studies...
yr 2003.. gt 2 knw muhd afit frm irc..nt my ex,bt my luverz..chebah! ahakz.. chattin wif him n ex-change no bt neva msging..middle of march then started 2 knwin each otha..gt 2 knw he leaved near-by my houz...ahakz..gt 2 mit him n bla bla..nuthin else happen...w/o sudden we lost contact...in lup wif him seriously..waited fer yrs 2 gt him back..nw at last!kaka..
15 april if im nt wrg there is went i met my ex dearest hubby,Muhd hafidz at bp..hee! Went out wif my pri schl frenz "lepakz" at bp there..eye contact wif each otha...ex-change no n frm there e story of us begin....nt nearly 1mth..2o april 03 is e date tat we 2gether..E expression of luv,happines,joyful,excitment,missing has been reveal...luv him wif fully of my heart...everythg is wat i nd hav in him...everlastin lup...bt all tiz has been written..i started 2 gt back wif my asshole attitude of bein bustard durin my ite life..gt influence by tiz major plastic fren of mine,azullia.b'coz of her im nt myself,bustard my luvz one n b'come wild frm there she let me 2 gt 2 knw tiz guy firdaus tatz wat my 7th ex. nt last jt a few wkz we SILENT BREAK AGAIN!!..aiyoo..stress! w/o futher notice i gt 2 knw one fella whom name zulkhaini haha..he loved me tat much till confident of himself tat one dae i'll b his wife..in his dreams! haha...again i bustard him..fer wat 2 stead longer wif e person tat u dont luv..u may hurtz he/she more..doesnt mean 2 do tat bt tat tyme was in e middle of influence..bt syukur alhamdullilla...ujian tuhan hanya sementara...w/o further adoom..i realise myself bit by bit..knowin tat i been influence bt tiz bitch! tryin 2 turn back tymes wif my lups one,hafidz..bt 2 shy 2 do it..dnt wanna gt teased back frm him... bt i succeeded!he still luv me,still waitin fer me 2 came back 2 him...lucky 2 hav him n 2 knwin him...bt sadness e realtionship 3yr+ ended in yr 2006...He askd fer it due of gettin bored n jelak wif him..guyz! easily gt bored!nw carry on wif my simple life...

c e moral of my stories is tat do not trust sweet talk ma fck,dnt ever bustard 2 e person tat luvz u..u neva knws tatz e return is 2x double than u did...find frenz wisely same 2 finding a stead...dnt let them take advantage of u...

2006-07-08T23:26:00.000+08:00

Nuthin much happen 2 dae..Went BB jt nw visitin my uncle n my Atok...Well,itz seem atok has recover abit frm his sickness...alhamdullillah...bt u knw old man..also hav feelings...sensertive n etc.....bt poor2 my uncle he broke his right arm due of fall down while werkin...haix! lepas satu satu lagi dtg..mcm2 dugaan etul my makcik hav 2 face it..pitty her...think ini satu ujian oleh tuhan..sabar jela cik enon...pahala bnyk.....hmmm....
C her jt nw..kecian sey...cn c her tiredness face..early mornin wake up already..then hav a few mints rest...kecian kn? bt wat 2 do da nasib dea...haix...=(

Stress!! Makin tiz logo drive me crazy...argh!!! Bt hav pay ar...nt easy 2 b'cum design...im nt tat expert enough..cn so called a starter..my 2nd bro been offered 2 make a website designer...he offer me 2 werk wif him as in logo designer...sounds interesting n gt paid oit..siape tk nk kn! so i accept it..after he discuss me abt e thinggy..sounds seem so easy tapi nk uat nye...YA ALLAH!! punyela susah...stress giler...!! i only knw e basic of designin lyke wat i did at my blog pic nw..itz jt a basic bt tis over standard sia..alamak! pening kepale....jt nd sumone help 2 gav a comment fer my werk...wen im done i'll show ya aytez..wanna signin off~* sleepy duh! nytez!

2006-07-06T22:37:00.000+08:00

Althought itz a belated b'dae,our fren fauziah cnt make it..we still enjoying ourself..itz my lil sis b'dae..YANA! Guez wat her b'dae was lyke my b'dae sey..We wear e same colour shirt..hehe... Ok pe..My b'dae was lyke ur b'dae nw ur b'dae was lyke my b'dae la..fair rytez? hee!
Went out at 3pm sharp as usual met yana at YISHUN MRT...supporse 2 met e otherz ard 430 bt guez wat 430 yana jt reach yishun mrt...haha...dgr2 tertinggal camera sanggup patah alek..BEST! HP start 2 irritatez us...Padan Muka..Siape suruh lbt..kn da calling2..haix! Yishun 2 orchard nt tat far pe..okla 2...On e wae reach AMK..here cum tiz fella wif e name of AZUL went in e train..Geez...bkn terserempak..da mmg tau..yana wanna met him ferst..Nt wrg fer them 2 met coz AZUL werking at 5 alight at e same station...So hantar die skali ar...

My heart start 2 pound uneasily wen we on e wae 2 far east..ARGH! met him! c he face..argh! cnt tk it...Bt i try 2 relax..be cool! Theres zal,zack,nailul n ein..they sclded us fer beein late..hee... yana jawab yana...i dnt knw! bluekz..! Yana n me decided 2 eat ferst coz we seriously damn hungry...bt tat M MAT RAP wanna walk2 ferst at far east due of they eaten already..RABAK! mkn tk tunggu sey..hmph!! No choice we hav 2 follow coz if we insist,they askd us 2 go alone n eat after tat met them sumwhere else..tk best kn..haix...Aru semangat nk mkn kat NANA THAI..hajad ku tk kesampaian..HAIX! Bt atleast we gt 2 passby there..hee!! YanA!! Ur one ade my one pn ade..hee~ 2bad we cnt enter..Nailul seem nt happy wif it..rytez after yana told me tat mine n herz was there werkin...hmm..*wonderin* bt WATEVER!
After tat we went 2 Hiren (dunno hw 2 spell..hee!) on e wae there passby lucky plaza..sudden heard tat sumone wanna enter HOUZ OF CONDOM...guez who? Who else if nt tat nailul..yana kesukaan sey...GATAL! Bt poor2 M MAT RAP n Ein..Cnt enter..due of UNDER AGE..hee! Pitty them,i neva go in..only nailul,yana n zack..me? bdk baek ar..nt interested will all tiz..CM FAHAM! Treat zal n ein BIG GULP..hehe..thirsty ar......tgk diaorg cm kecian g2..ahakz..jk2! =>
Waited fer them cm bdk bodoh sey..LAMENYE! Kol yana,n guez wat? dg2 diaorg da kt hiren..wah! BAGUS BANGET SI! Bt nvm..be cool...reach there buy nuthin jt walk ard see thinggy...then waited fer dunno watz e bus no..hehe..wanna go marina dunno tat nailul wanna buy ring..while wait..ME AGAIN..blanja them old chung kee..nvmla..gt my salary wat..dnt lokek..tk bagus...they seem 2 enjoying e food biasela mkn free pe...
In e bus me sit wif ein,yana as usual wif zal,nailul wif zack..guez wat..dgr2 ade org 2 nk ambek gbr la bt in e other hand they neva realised tat they were takin a video..wish cld show ya bt 2 bad cnt upload it..sowie!!
Haix..waited fer him 2 find e ring was lyke waited ape sey...carik cincin cm carik cicin tunang sey..aiyooooooooo.....my stomach started 2 singin already....HUNGRY!!! After satisfied we went 2 marina food court...been there 3 tymez already...lyke e evironment...so nice!! cn see e esplanade side n etc..very beautifull..further more very e windy...I ate chicken black pepper wif rice..yummy! delicious..yana ate e same 2....zal n zack ate dunno wat..ferget already..hehe..only 4 of us eat..ein n nailul dun wanna eat...full already..guez so! Hungry lyke wat went gt 2 eat a lil bit only da full...bnyk minum air ar..aiyoooooooooo...stop tat habit la faezah...! Only left over was e chicken...luv chicken bt 2 bad da tkleh sumbat lagik...askd yana 2 finish it up..haha tgk muka tkpela..seem lyke she also cnt finish it up..askd zal n zack..they also cnt...then sudden heard sumone askd nailul n ein whether they wanna chicken or nt..guez who ans? hahahaha...NAILUL... dunno whether he knws tatz im e one who cnt finish it...tgk cm he dnt bother at all...etul nye bersih...kecian..lapar kot! hmmmmmmmmm......................diaorg tkt kn yana abt e sabo thinggy...yana face pail already..haha..tkt ehk? tk bawak baju ehk? heee....dgn pantasnye she pull me frm there...hehe...she brought me 2 alamak! ferget ar e shop name...aiyooooooooooooooooooooooo.........................bt watever it is..tatz e place i brought fer her b'dae present....she brought tiz one purple shirt...lyke it so much..so sweet n nice...me jealous sey..thought of buyin e green shirt..nice! bt nvm la..hati tk sdp ar..dunno y......she seem happy wif it...=)
then met them at e same place we straight went 2 esplanade..as usual our lepakz place........takin photoz chit chatting n etc...then at 10 i went off...met my bro..due of sumthg goin on..reach hm ard 11+...end of story!

.::*Ezah Wif B'dae Gerl (SHYGAL)*::.

We Enjoy Ourselves..wee~*

E so called "Boyband"Nice pose.. (wazzup wif e red shirt guy? hee!)

Toilet Model of e Year..* ahakz..!

E crazy Bunch...*

2006-06-28T22:46:00.000+08:00

Y must i actin tiz wae? y shld i stress? y shld i feel uncomfortable? y shld i feel guilty? Y? Y? Y? argh!!! Plz god stop testing me all tiz..i cnt tk it anymore...2 much stress,2 much probz, 2 much to think abt, 2much,2much n 2much...haix! 2morrow will b guin out celebratin my lil sis belated b'dae..At ferst was so happy n cnt wait fer e dae bt wen cumz e dae all e stupidness feelingz came out frm no wae...y eh? No ans..Mayb b'coz of sum1..ya! B'coz of sum1! Sumone tat i tired 2 mension...Argh! 2 STRESS 2 think abt it...Cnt bare 2 face tat person face...gosh! Watz wrg wif me...Y must i actin tiz stupid wae n hav a mafuck feelings? geez! I think i hav no ans fer tat..STOP! think positive plz faezah..Itz ur lil sis b'dae..dnt disappointed her...Make her happy..Dnt care who ever shit was there as long u enjoy urself..buat muka tebal...act as normal..nuthin happen...malu2 rugi sendiri...!

Shld i go? shld i nt? hmm...HELP!!

2006-06-26T22:15:00.000+08:00

Hw does it feel 2 loose sumone tat u really luv,care n treasure much? Sad? Hurtz? Stress? Confused? Complicated? n etc....

TatZ wat im into nw..Sad? Of course!!!! Y must tiz happen 2 me? Pplz cum pplz goes.. Haix! I tried so hard 2 b nice,sincere,loyalty,understanding n etc..bt tiz is wat i gt in return? Watz went wrg? qnsmark???? I lost my hubby,lost my frenz,lost e one i luv..haix...STRESS!!!! Hatez my life Hatez myself Hatez watever shit abt me!! Fuck!! Cnt wait 2 die soon...Living in a plastic life wif a plastic world....Bein nice is wrg bein bad is more worst then expecting me be wat? Abnormal?Haix!!

Hurtz me alotz wen he did tiz 2 me..Wat u treat me as? Ur social workerz? One minute u need me..d next u change..u cum 2 me wen u r facin problems...wat do take me as? UR SOCIAL WORKERZ? HELLO!! Im ur GF k...nt ur BONEKA MAINAN!! Hatez u,hatez ur attitude,hate u in my life hatez watever shit abt u! Yes! I gav up! Gav up everythg to u!!! U turn my life into nightmare..Mula2 kenal cm faham then ending2 mcm SIAK!! Argh!! Y did u do tiz 2 me HAFIDZ??!! U told me nt 2 hav a guy frenz yes i listen to ya..coz i knw ur jealousy is very STRONG! so i listen to ya..bt watelse u want frm m? U blame me fer online wif other guyz at nite...bt u urself hav heard it tat i ALWAEZ online wif my lil sis..U knw i close 2 her..Bt y? Y b'coz of tat u throw attitude 2 me? y b'coz of tat u angry n jealous? Its LIANA hafidz..Its a gerl nt a guy..!! Duh!! U too much! yes! U R!! U throw me words n watever fuck ar 2 me...3yrs+ wif ya i neva ever throw fucking werds 2 u neva ever said tat i nie JELAK N BOSAN! Bt y nw u release all tat words 2 me? After 3yrs+ we 2gether..Y NW??!!!! knape tk dari dulu?? We went through 2gether...our memories still in my mind.Wen u nd me,i'll alwaez b by urside..My tears u wipe it with ur finger tips,ur kisses,my hug 2 u,my luv,ur luv..everthg i gav it 2 u..n u gav me everythg 2..Bt wat else u nt satisfied? Nw i cn c rar ur luv towards me has gone bit by bit..U even askd a thousand tyme fer break up..i declined n declined..burst into tears...bt did u care? did u worried? did u bother? NOT AT ALL!! U r an egoist!! U want ppl 2 knw h u feel bt did u knw hw i feel? Tunjok perasaan tk tentu psl! Wats tat? CHILDISH!! I cried till i dnt knw hw 2 cried till my tears cnt came out anymore..n yes! i gav up! U askd fer break? Yes i accept it...!! I cnt tk tiz anymore...Im useless 2 u..Sae watever u wanna sae abt me coz i dnt care at all...Muka nie Buat u jelak n bosan kn so jt BERAMBZ frm my life...!!!!!!!!!! Bt look in e end..siape carik siape? 2dae u askd fer break e nxt dae u cnt accept it tat we already break up...dgn muka tk tau malu u still treat me as ur gerl..IM CONFUSED!! N COMPLICATED...R U OK OR NT? haix..watever it is..i dnt wanna stress myself..jt treating myself as single..STATUS? COMPLICATED..VERY!! Once again thanx MR HAfiDZ FER EVERYTHG....HAIX!!!

My luv one? Dnt wanna mention it..Bt yes i admit i miss him..ALOTZ!! Confused wif ya attitude..Lyke i said mula2 cm faham ending2 cm siak...Out of sudden we lost contact...Y? tatz wat alwaez in my mind..Keep thinkin n thinkin y suddenly lyke tat? y sudden u out frm my life? CONFUSED n Cnt accept e fact tat u gone.. Miz him alotz..yes i do!! I wnt gav up findin wat went wrg n y suddenly u lyke tat..I STILL NEED A REASON FRM U!!

2006-06-25T01:18:00.000+08:00

No matter hw tired i am nor half dead..bt e semangat berjln is there! hee!!..Went out wif my bro n kak nur..wee~ kecoh! jt e 3 of us! yupz..after werk met my bro at orchard ctrl station then wen 2 far east met sis nur...After tat went 2 NANA THAI RESTAURANT 2 eat..Yummy!! My one n only fav restaurant..E foods was superb delicious...Delight!!!=) We order 3 plain rice wif seafood tom yam n sambal kangkong...tatz all..Kecian eh..ckit jek mkn...wat 2 do ade org 2 bnyk pantang..tkleh mkn i2 ini bla bla..hehe!! Then went checkerz shop 2 brought a shoes fer myself b4 tat me n sis nur bertawaf kt tingkat 3 jt b'coz wanna find e checkerz shop..All tiz thanx 2 Mr M MAT RAP aka SHARIZAL fer giving us wrong info!! hmph!!Sakit hati jek..Confident e checkerz shop a level 3....search n search etul2 bertawaf sey...atlast i gt 2 knw MYSELF tat e checkerz shop was at level 4...WAH!! HAPPIE BANGET SI!!!! Hmph!!....Wen go in there..im so damn sad..e shoez nt so nice sey..wanna buy e checkers pattern bt then itz commen gt tiz penguin design..luv 2 colourz bt e design HATEZ IT!! Siape mau g beli penguin design g2 mcm sey..if nice its ok ar bt..haix..dnt hav e words 2 describe...Nxt tyme jela i go n buy e slip on shoes wif my lil sis yana..Accompany me aytez gerl... Then we went 2 C.K Teng searchin fer my dad b'dae prezzie..Me n my bro decided 2 brought fer him an electric shaver tat he desperately wanted fer so long....e price nt so expensive ard $100+..Not bad...Share money of coz! After tat wen 2 Lido searchi fer my mp3....Budget only $16+ bt e mp3 ard $200+..wah! very e expensive sey..Reject it decided 2 turn back go lucky plaza...bt b4 tat sempat met my lil sis..hehe... She also at lido wif zal,ein n zafira..bt i jt met her..Face so different sey gerl,,ur dress-up cm tk terhurus sey..Y u lyke tat gerl? aiyoooooo!! Aniwei after met her went lucky plaza...tats is were i brouht my mp3...$150..creative Zen..Atlast i gt an mp3 fer myself..kecian eh aru skg dpt beli..Watever it is as long im happie i gt mp3 by my OWN MONEY...mehehee....! Then wen 2 MC CAFE at lido..Turn back again...jln2 wat...:) Decided 2 order iced chocolate.. Its so yummy!!! hee!! Sum1 wif a nt bad looking made it..No wonder delicious..haha...Stop e crap FAEZAH!! Taking photo lyke mad..haha...Very e jakun U KNW!! hee!!

After tat we take cab send sis nur hm then went straight back 2 tamp..Haix!! Home Sweet Home..Damn tired..werkin mornin shift 2morrow...Tired sia..k wanna fly away..Nytez....!!

2006-06-22T00:51:00.000+08:00

Visitin my atok 2morrow...I cnt help it sey..seein his condition lyke tat...once i step in..my tears suddenly came out...was shock 2 c him..speechless...........!! Heard frm my mum tat he felt frm bathroom n his left eye lend ferst..tat cause his neck retak n mata kirinye bengkak tk terkata..n dgr2 ade ketumbuhan di perutnye...klau pecah..atok tk dpt diselamatkn......haix!! Harap2 my atok sihat seperti dahulu...Please pray fer him...thanxz!!

2006-06-19T00:12:00.000+08:00

Blog hopping one of my fren blog..Haix..seriously i dunno wat happen 2 us! If ya think im a backstabber....its up 2 u 2 judge me....im jt tellin e truth of wat ya said abt her n me...I jt gt mad wen ya talk sum bad thinggy abt us....U shld knw wat it is....If ya think im trying 2 influence yana...SOWIE!! im nt tat type of person....!! If ya realli angry wif me,dipersilakan..i think u wldnt wanna knw hw i felt....im tryin 2 b nice here..bt end up tiz is wat i gt........I hate fightin over all e stupid thinggy..n i hate 2 loose a good fren lyke ya...bt plz...mind ya words b4 talkin..TERUS TERANG i said!! So frm there u shld knw y we lyke tiz n u knw wats ur mistake....If ya wanna blame me abt tiz matter....go ahead...!! I dnt mind at all....Wat i knw,i dnt make-up any story n i neva add sum story..wat is said itz has 2 b said..tatz all!!!

2006-06-16T01:00:00.000+08:00

Havin fun wif my lil sis jt nw..haha..case tk ade benda nk uat..we went out jt 2 of us.......if nt wif fauziah bt then 2bad she cnt make it....hav sum skool stuff..nvm we understand...exam jt ard e corner..anwei...plan 2 waer long skirt 2gether2 bt end up i wear jeans...hahah sowie gerl..i dunt hav e mood of wearing long skirt..hehe..MERAP EH? bt watever...atleast we hav fun....
E funniest thinggy is tat itz been a long tyme we neva met one of out fren here...so itz lyke over excited..n nervous....went we gt 2 met him jt nw..hahaha..we laught lyke mad..n tried 2 run away...punye la selenge..watta happen 2 u traz...tkkn jt b'coz heartbroke wif gf u lyke tat ryte..malu sey!!!...yana cannt take it..kol nailul fer help...so we met him n zack at orchard far east there..hahaha...frm there came e hero 2 rescue us..haha..cm faham!!! Bt pity traz..sowie eh....we neva mean 2 do tat..bt y atferst u vanish jt lyke tat?hmmm...met nailul n zack jt fer awhile onli...lookin at him makez me melt sey..dgr2 org 2 da gunting rbt npk lain..HENSEM BANGET SI!! WADUH!! After tat we split...they meetin ein at borders..we we jt continue wif jt e 2 of us outin..haha..went HMV..brought 2 sleeveless fer myself jt 2 for $10 ONLI...cheap ryte? then went 2 ps brought myself a skirt at vintage..nice! jt fer $18 onli...cheap ryte? then wen 2 F women brought long sleeve shirt jt fer $9..brought 2..1 fer me n 1 fer my lil sis..plannin e next outin decided 2 wear same2...haha..semangat...lastly we went 2 esplanade...hahah...met nina...sit there n see couple kissing everywhere..argh! itz really irritatez my eyes...uwek!! hmph! then went hm..reach hm 11+pm...wah! so earlier ar...hee!

2006-06-14T02:21:00.000+08:00

Hey ya'll..Its been ages i neva update ma blog..hahaha..Been bz wif my werk n sum stuff...
Guez wat...Lotsa prob cumin through my life....STRESS!!! Bt manage 2 solve it bit by bit...
Well here it goes...

I Miz him altz..Yes! I do!! Althought we split.."sayang" is still there..Askin me whether i still luv him? Tk nk jwb leh tk? Wat i knw i jt miz him...n yes still "syg" him bt luv...i dunnoo...E story is full of shit n long itz betta fer me 2 keep it 2 myslef...SOWIE!!

Aniwei..Im happy wif my life nw...Seriously....No more stressful!! FREEDOM!! I LOIKE!! Bt sumtymes Loneliness is there...Thanx 2 my lil sis yana fer alwaez b there wen im down....Thanx gerlz..Luv ya muchie much.Muax* wink*!

On e 31 may was a superb dae...hahaha..Celebratin Mr M MAT RAP AKA ZAL!! B'DAE!!HAHA...OOPS!!Sowie Yana...!!! :p 2bad i dont hav e photo nw yet..coz its in my lil sis camera.....send 2 me ayte gerl wen ya comp ok already...Went out wif,ZACK,EIN,NAILUL,YANA,ME,N B'DAE BOY..SHARIZAL....hahaha..Dgr2 aru nk 17 eh? ish3!...Aru nk ajak tgk citer m18...2bad ar!!!hee!! Met them at yishun mrt....kecoh!! Didnt expected tat im waering e same colour wif nailul...GREEN!! hahahaha........GILER!!! dgr2 zal sanggup pinjam aju frm nailul jt b'coz wanna same colour wif yana..hahaha...aniwei wonderin who's nailul? well,he's act my lil sis cuzzin...will show ya e photo of him after i finish up my story..wee~Then we split fer a moment coz wanna buy a beg fer my mummy..she's kpo ar...watever beg i brought tat attract her she also want it....KPO kn? bt nvm ...my mother wat..luv her much! brought it at far east.....sambil 2 wash eyes..haha...GATAL!!! yana u knw i knwla eh public dunno..hee! after tat went lucky plaza...dgr2 diaorg main pool...best banget si!!...
Reach there..wow! lotsa guyz out there..haha..wash eyes jap..hehe...nuthin betta 2 do..jt wash eyes ar...bt cnnot over...wait sum1 will gt mad on me..*wink* didnt knw tat he play pool dgn semangatnye...bt cute ar..:P hehehehe...
after tat went 2 far east back...wanna hav our dinner...if im nt wrg we ate at sinaran there on e 4th floor..if im nt wrg...seem so crowded thought of e food must b nice..bt "terbalek lak" ITZ WORST!!YUCKZ!! E drink lyke expired lyke tat...e food..haix..no comment..sdp tk sdp..bedal jela....i ate honey chicken noodles...quite ok ar...50/50....after finish up we went 2 esplanade....dgr2 nailul bwak telur...ein n zack da semangat stand-by..hahaha...jahat sey....
Very e kecohrable la tat tyme....kecian b'dae boy..kaki sakit2 terpakse lain dunno gt sabo..bt atlast kene gak..BAU TELUR SEY!! hehe..very e funla went out wif them..reach hm exact 12am..hehe..naughty me!!well..here's a photo of them.....

Sharizal...B'dae Boy seem so happie!!

Ok there's it fer nw!! Hope ya enjoy it!!Hee!!

2006-04-21T23:07:00.000+08:00

My ferst dae of job..at WATSON..Location at paya lebar there..Wah! Very troublesome.Report 2 e hq at The adelphi at 9 am SHARP! ggrrrhh..Wake up so early in e morning..haix! So lazy n sleepy...Gt used 2 wake up 10+ bt tiz tyme 6+ aiyoo...very early sey...Bt eager 2 werkn n want 2 earn money..nd money i hav 2 lor..hee! Gt e uniform..Nie part touching sey..serious! i asked fer size M fer e shirt they gav me S...I asked fer size 36 fer e pants they gav me 34...Abt e shirt i dnt nt check it n i didnt try it..tatz my mistake.Bt fer e pants i try it..34 size is too big..wae 2 big..e waist area loosen abit..bt e rest...NO COMMENTZ!! Then i asked fer size 28..when i gt it i didnt check it coz e lady wanna us 2 rush there...so no tyme at all! When reach there..wah! syg bnyk2 sey sooooooo touching..when i wanna put on my pants..ceh! muat pe! Suke pe! Instead of 28 they gave 26!!!!!!! BEST!! Guess wat..hav 2 go back 2 e HQ n change 2 size 28....SUKE PE!!!!!!!!!BODOH!

Watever it is..after all e tiredness...ulang-alek ke sane sini..verythg goes perfectly....lykez ne environment there....They all very frendly n kechorable...serious! No jokez...me new staff there had jt knwn tem itz seemz lyke its been a year knwn each other...YUPZ! A year! hehe...Overall funla..E ferst job fer me is 2 arrange sum stocks...as usual every retailling hav 2 do tat...bt tatz a comment fer me coz i hav done it during kfc...so therez no a problem at all....after tat..ok finish...u done...u jt hav 2 stand there n keep on eye on ur customers...jt need e recognize where all e stuff been place n blablabla..Fun & easier..vey e slack...serious..NO JOKEZ! Tatz e hgz i hav done fer 2dae..2morrow i'll be working at 10 am...dunno watz next i hav 2 do...jt wait fer 2morrow lor..k gonna slip nw..tired sey..gosh! cnt believe i sleep ard tiz tmye..Nah! WATEVER..K NITEZ!!!!!!!

2006-04-10T18:14:00.000+08:00

Went Changi Jt nw wif my family havin dinner..Heheh..Gara2 nk mkn Nasi Ayam PenyeK..We av 2 wait nearly 1hr..Loadz of pplz sia... I cnt stand e hungryness so i order a black pepper stick 2 eat while waitin fer e nasi ayam penyek...haix! Hate it sia i even wanna see Cinderella II I MIZ IT! sHIT!!.Anywae...Since i hav tiz brand new hp same goes 2 my bro we cnt stop takin pictures..haha...

2006-04-08T00:00:00.000+08:00

Havin fun wif ma Ghurlfrenz jt nw..So call sister outing..hahaha...Miz them muchie much esp Fauziah..Atlast gt 2 mit ya gerl...Its been long tyme we lost contact n yes we meet again..Me n ur lil sis yana miz ya alotz sey..Bt really hav fun jt nw..u getting more prettier gerl...Stay tat wae as alwaez...Dnt stress up aytez..Ur trademark of "gabra" is alwaez there since ite schl..i realise tat...haha...

Aniwei fun 2 be wif them...Dnt wanna talk much jt look at e pix of us at esplanade..hehe..

2006-04-02T16:14:00.000+08:00

Fed-up sey...wat i did wrg? i dnt interrupt their life 4 wat they wanna interrupt my life? they r nt e 1 who gav birth me..b4 saying me better tk note of ur daughter ferst ar..b'coz of them i hav 2 change my blog add n hav 2 delete my pic wif ma hubby at friendster..alamak!
changing my blog add its ok fer me bt deleting my pic wif ma hubby..NO WAY!! I dnt care wat ppl wanna say as long i knw my limit.I did nt pt a pic tat makes pple eyes wild openz! B4 they wanna say me betta tk a good look at their daughter...Dnt make me loose my patient...They treating me lyke a SMALL KIDZ! Lyke HELLOO...im 19 i hav grown up..my parents did nt say anythg..so who e hell r u wanna stop me all tiz..u hav ur own life n i hav mine 2..so jt back off!! Act..i dnt entertain nonsence bt jt b'coz of ma parents i HAVE 2!! By changing my blog add tats e only wae i cld do it..bt deleting my pic wif ma hubby SOWIE..tats has gone 2 far fer it!!

2006-03-28T19:22:00.000+08:00

Gt nuthin 2 do 2dae..So bored..Wae 2 bored!! Wish i cld join them havin slumber party at Dee houz..Bt 2 bad i cnt..Sad! *sob* Jt spending my tyme wif ma laptop..Updating wat is nd n atz all...Boring ryte? Wat 2 do.cnt go outz! Almost everydae i went out...Feelling so tired..Bt watever tiz hwz life goes..Gonna find a job a.s.a.p nd money 2 support myself...w/o money cnt survive..Yeah! Gt alotsa thgz 2 buy...hmm....*thinkin* hee..
Well tatz all fer nw.. ~adios~

2006-03-27T21:10:00.000+08:00

Yesterdae is SundaE..As usual Family Dae..Went orchard wif ma family.Jt 2 tk a boucher coz my dad brought a laptop fer me.After tat went Far East Plaza 2 had our Lunch at Nana Thai...E food is so delicious till make me cnt stop licking.hee..Yum! Yum! Esp e sweet & sour seabass..Wah! Fantastic! We also ate chilli crab,spicy seabass soup,babylon wif scallop, butter prawn n of coz wif rice..hee! Fer our drink we 4 had e same drink tat is coconut drink! Yummy! All 2gther cost $87+..Worth it!! Seriously!
After tat went 2 metro at Century Square.Brought sum cooking stuff.Gt boucher wat so "Borong ar"..Bt tatz fer my mum ar..Then went 2 Courts at TM searching fer a Fan..Jt fer me coz e fan tat i usually use is small n so hot!! I also brought a brand new HP hee...Kak nur,my hp same as urs already..hee..happy sey! Atlast i gt it! Desperately want it! Dunno y mayb coz of e colourz...heee...Bt e sad thgz is tat i dnt gt e USB Device n e cd coz only during e latest gt it nw promotion thinggy n watever shit they dnt gav it already..Sad! Wat 2 do happy or nt jt tk it lor...

2006-03-25T15:02:00.000+08:00

HOLA!!
IM BACK DUDE!!

Ferstly i wld lyke 2 thanx 2 ma lovable monitor fer delay me of posting my blog n sum other stuff due of some explosion has happen a frew months ago...Nw im back!! wakaka... Wif ma brand new LAPTOP..thnx 2 ma daddy fer e gift..I appreciate it very e much..wee!! So nw im free 2 do watever i want..(i2 pn nk blg..ape jek) k i'll b back fer more....daa..!!

2006-02-04T17:14:00.000+08:00

What e hell is wrg wif me 2dae!! Watever shit i do is wrg..Holding a glass is nt heavy enough bt i cn break it..My mum nagging at me blah blah blah..Jt cnt sit quietly..Sumthg is nt ryte..i feel uncomfortable..i dunno y..felt lyke wanna cry also hav bt dunno wats e reason fer it...so frustrated n stress nw!! aarrgghh!!! God plz help!!

Later nitez hav 2 go "rewang" jt behind my block which was my mum fren.."leceh ar cm malas g2"..see hw..if my 2nd bro wanna go i go if nt kirim salam jek..hee!! Miz ma dear ryte nw..gt a lil fight wif him jt nw..haix!! Aniwei, jt made my couple blog yest..feel free 2 link me up ayte..leave ya comment 2..nt tat 2 high class expert in designning jt simple n sweet..
Gt 2 do sum stuff ryte nw..ENJOY AYTE!!

2006-02-03T21:40:00.000+08:00

Jt recover frm my swollen gum..yeah! Nw i cn talk as much as i lyke,eat as much as i want, drink cold,hot,sweet n etc as much as i want..hahaha..Fell more energetic..tat few daez nvr nag at ma hubby nt i hav e apportunity 2 nag at him..many mistake he has made till my blood go upstairs.. Bt sumtymes i feel so bad fer it..Love..if u love sum1 sooner or later u will 4give n 4gt ryte..
Relationships alwaez hav e misunderstanding stuff...Lies if none of u out there nt quarrelling wif ya partner ryte...Cnt wait 2 meet ma dearly nxt sat..hee!! I WANT BUTTERFLY BELT!!! hee!!
Feel much betta of ma life nw no more living in e life of prison..ahakz..after they met ma hubby they gav me green lite 2 b wif him..they trust him more n even pt him in-charge of taking care of me..hee!They really lyke ma hubby...esp ma dad..=)
whenever they met each other there are loadz of stories 2 tells..ya i mean it no joke..Im so happy fer it!!! nw im free..bt nt tat really..ok2 la..Sweet!!

2006-01-31T21:32:00.000+08:00

Nt feeling well 2dae..My gum was swollen badly..aarrgghh..cnt eat,cnt talk,cnt sleep.. E painfullness catch till ma left eye..swollen so badly sey..My parents gettin worried abt me esp ma dad..hehe..All calls been rejected by me..hee..sowie guyz i wish i cld ans ya call bt i cnt...
It was sooo boring..all i cld do jt lying dwn my bed n suffer e painness...haix!*

2006-01-30T20:41:00.000+08:00

2 dae continuos g balek g balek frm pasir ris..My father side havin a bbq pit..TIRED N BORING!!Tats wat i feel tat 2 daes..Bt thanx 2 my darlz yana fer accompany me on tat satz..
Nw u knw hw i feel ayte gerl..hee! Cldnt entertain all e childish attitude of my couzin..E 1 who wif e mat rep..haha..tk leh angkat siak! Standard aru nk naek katakn..E 1 who jeles of yana n me.. Wonder y..Bt watever..Kidz!!Tkleh salahkn..During chinese new at e pasir ris really pack..whole loadz full of pplz which was malay..picnic,bbq n etc..So thnx 2 THOSE who accompany me tat 2 daes..thanx Mr & Ms..hehe!!Onli e one who noe 1(u knw who u r)...*wink*

2006-01-20T18:48:00.000+08:00

HALUUUU!!

hee! Welcum 2 my butterfly world! ceh! watever..
Sowie fer e inconvenience abt my blog 4 those who has view it..hehe..wrg code lerr..
Anywae i made new 1..simple n sweet! Gav comment if u want 2 at my chillin tag..
Last bt nt least HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAE 2 SIS NUR! EEE! DAH TUA AR NENEK NIE! hehe
Jt a few mths aways u will b taken away forever by your prince..All e best 2 u sis.. n also happy anniversary 2 me n my dearly...Luv ya muchie much..=)

2006-01-04T15:39:00.000+08:00

Went out yest.Finding job 2 werk..Ahahakz!
Age getting older n older,dnt expect jt sitting at home do nuthin n wait 4 sum1 purpose u..hahaz..Need money 2..w/o money cnt survive hehe..

Me n my pri fren Jamilah,went orchard n she apply a job at Andana Spa there..Then find job at bugis..Haix bercinta sey nk carik tempatnye..Sum of them said at tekka there sum of them said near middle rd there...carik punyela carik tk dpt2 kiter pn gav up coz e tyme fer interview is 2pm to 5 pm..bt e tyme is already 5+..Kirim salam sua..hee! Then dunno were else 2 go office hrs end aready we went bugis junction n take photo..hehehe...

2005-12-29T18:23:00.000+08:00

Sick,Stress,Frustated,Angry.....!!!!!!!!!!God,Plz help me!!

2005-12-27T19:17:00.000+08:00

Im sick! Sick,Sick,Sick!
Hate itz!! aarrgghh!!
Coughing non-stop,fever,my whole body gettin weak.Pain there here..haix!
B4 tat,Merry christmas N Happy new Year!

During christmas my family went 4 BBQ pit @ my father side.
Very e boring! All my couzins still a small kid.Only 2 cn so called teenagers.Bt nt tat mature enough..haha..Bad! Easy said tat e ryte place 2 share probz or talk wif..
So im there left alone,bt lucky hav my bro.He's e only 1 tat cn talk wif...
Watching e sunset..So e beautiful! I wish my dearly b'side me cn enjoy e romantic season...hahah..
Nothin much happening,jt tat i gt stomaches.E chicken is nt properly cook..Lame! Loiter ard by myself n beein disturb by boyz out there..hehe..*wink*
Tats all i do e whole dae...Lame ryte? If tiz continuesly i guess i gain my weight! =)
Cnt sleep e whole dae till e next mondae mornin which is yest ard 10+ packing up n went hm..Haix! Home sweet Home!

2005-12-23T21:24:00.000+08:00

on tue dec 05 went out wif ma dear n sista.Meet at lido watch King Kong haha..
Very e best n funny..Jt watch it if ya wanna knw y..hee!!
Tat tyme u cn find many weirdo pplz..At cinema gt tiz irrtating ah so! Even cn find a couple gay..ahahz..! My eyez cnt stop watchin them..eeee yuck! ok watever wif tat gay thgz..
After watchin movie wen 2 far east having our meal at burger king.Nt so full enough.. still hungry..Tat whole dae i drank alot of gassy drink tats make my stomach full enough n feel lyke wanna throw up..
Then wen 2 this fashion 4 shopping.ahahz..I brought 3/4 pants black colour.Nt jeans!
After tat we loiter all around e orchard till plaza singapura..Dnt worries me n ma guy sista are a shopping freak! Many offers,discount everywhere..My hands always ichy.Cnt stop grabbing thgz.Poor dearlie,scared seeing me react tat wae..hee! LUV YA! MUACKZ!
After tat went back 2 tampines..Wah! really makes me headache..Orchard alotz of pplz even at tamp 2..Gt "pasar malam" sales everywhere..excited sey! Went mango brought tiz i cloth..very e pweety! Itz coz $19.00.Sowie yana ma mistake..see wrgly la nt $19.90 ahahz..i even brought Contact lens..aqua! desperately want it coz all of ma contact lens has expired so wanna try new colours.ahahz!freshkon only suitable wif ma eyes..dunno y..*wonder*
my dear brought me a cool sweater..kinda hip hop style..i guess!pink colour also hee.. *twing*.Telling e truth i hate pink..bt i lyke hotpink..nt tat lame pink! hate it! Searching 4 purple colour bt e purple was lyke yuck!Then wen pasar malam searching 4 food..hehe..yummy!Find a place 2 sit n yes i meet my ex admire..frm sec schl..wee~ he so e different sey..bt e best thgz is he cldnt recognize me..lalala.. nah! cnt b borded..*lame* After enjoying our food hav a rest around 9+ nearly 10 we take a bus n they send me home..yeah!

Then jt nw me go outz again wif ma mummy..went TM take ma contact lens coz i order it.Went shopping again..wee~ My mum very e sporty..She brought me tiz cool 3/4 sleeve t-shirt hotpink n white..2 in 1 colour..heheh..very funky! even a long sleeve brown shirt..i lyke tiz one! Nice~ both cost $24..cheap2 ryte..Then guess wat,my mum even brought a sweater 4 her self..same lyke me bt different colour m different design..hee! Nk jadi hip hop ke mak..hehehe! *WINK* she even brought e pants bt tat nt hip hop different 1 la..hee..then buy food at pasar malam..i cnt stop eat tiz thgz..dunno wat e ball2 thgz ar inside gt prawn,crabstick,octopus n etc.. yummy! E best of all i lyke keropok leko..Yum,yum!My mummy spent alot of money 2dae..jt 4 me n herself..wee~ Luv ya mummy..*muack* then after tat went hm la..wat 2 do she cannot walk 2 long leg pain n she easily gt headache...Cnt wait 2 go shopping again..anyone wanna go shopping asked me out 2 la..wanna join..hehe!!

2005-12-14T20:26:00.000+08:00

Have you ever loved someone so much,

it makes you want to cry?

You cry cause you're touched

so deep inside.

He doesn't hate you.

You wish he did.

Apathy is worse than death.

He looks at you as if

all those long sweet kisses,

were never spent with you.

Apathy is worse than death.

You only want to make him happy.

But it seems like the only thing that

could ever make him happy

is to be without you.

He doesn't hate you,

you wish he did.

Apathy is worse than death.

One day he'll be so in love,

he'll want to cry.

He'll be touched so deep inside.

Lord, help her make him happy.

Hope she's all he needs.

He'll forget about me.

What about me?

2005-12-09T20:14:00.000+08:00

Feelin bored,frustrated,irritating,stress n watever shit ar..
Dunno y i feel tiz way...
Bored coz ma dearie nt in s'pore.Went melacca tiz morning wif his SC frenz..Dunno gt wat event..
Tiz sun afternoon he came back..Haix..Miz him alotz...:(

Helping my mum doin houzwerk then g free tyme dunno wat 2 do..wanna go out bt dunno wer 2 go wif who..my frenz all bz..bz wat i dunno...Gt frustrated n irritated by tiz stupid private no..Dunno whoz e asshole...Frm morning till nw wnt stop prank kol ppl..When i ans e phone theres a very silent environment u cn here...Jt fuck off la...Bt who carez..E persons is so stupid..Wasting his/her bill nt mine as i hav an free incoming kol...lalala...

2005-12-04T15:42:00.000+08:00

Yestdae was my happy day..dunno y..
I went 2 east coast 2 see e consert hanyutII..
Bt nt 4 e concert act i went there jt want 2 see e 4 hensem guyz frm anugerah..
Haha.im so damn excited...Cnt wait 2 see my fav 1's haha..Fauzie Laily!!
He's so cute yestdae...

E moment i cnt 4gt is tat when i was standing facing e stage suddenly behind me there's group of gerls shouting lyke hell when i turn around Fauzie jt ryte behind me..aarrgghh!!! gt 2 face 2 face wif him directly bt tat jt 4 a few sec only...e bodyguard has pull him away quickly if nt all e crazy crowd will crowded seround him...Bestkn....hehe..so cute sey..

Khairil was e small guy among them so cute sey...Ppl calling his name out bt he still there posing 4 us..all e kemaruk fans shouting lyke hell..makes my ears gone 2 deaf...
Bt e most sad thgz 4 me is tat my videocam batt already low..so cnt take thier pic or video..sad,sad,sad..*sob2*...Bt lucky has ma hp...although cnt see clearly bt tats makes me happy already..

gt alotz more ar bt haven upload yet..cnt see clearly ar..:(

Syed azmir really a romantic guy..the way he sang n even the way he treat a small kid sweet n romantic..tats small kid was sooo lucky even she gt e pic frm them..bestkn...
Khairul is so sweet sweet has candy hehe..wif his gerlish face bt has a powerful voice..Gerek ar!!
Tats was e moment i cnt 4gt..Nt sat i wll b meeting them again..yeah!! at orchard..they promoting thier vcd..gt 2 see them there!!

After satisfied seeing them went bedok 2 eat there coz we was absolutely hungry..then went hm..gt a small fight wif ma honey bt watever..really miz him..bt..haix nvm..
Luckily gt yana..she kol me..both of us miz our honey..So we both chat3 till 3+am..haha gerls talk many story ar..ryte yana? nxt tyme wen u bored jt gav me a kol ayte..i luv entertain pplz..hehe

2005-12-02T20:48:00.000+08:00

Ok2 u guyz stop neckgling at me...duh...
Yana come on..stop calling me "pemalas" same goes 2 u kak nur!!
Im tired k..cnt u guyz gav me a break..duh..
I knw its been a long tyme nvr update ma blog,bt im TIRED!! AAArrrggghhh!!!
Ok stop over-react gerl!!!

B4 i started,jt wanna makez an announcement..ceh!
I no more werking..I quit tat damn stupid job...
Y? Nah..im lazy 2 release my stressness n all e stupid feelings n sensertive of me.
Only those who i hav told knew it..*wink*

Ok letz started,
Selamat Hari Raye 2 all muslims out there!!
Yah2 i knw its late already..tooo latez..Bt so wat..I dnt care!!
Atleast i make a wish..hehe
Stop ur noncence gerl!

Tiz pic is me wif ma kfc family gangz member...

@ yana houz..e black colour kebaya gerl.On my left size e itam2 sikit..hehe
All tiz act couplez..Except!! Me n e chinese looking guy (bt act he's chinese muslim guy).. Bt he be come my part-tyme partner jt fer tat dae only..ceh!! Tk dpt ar!!Nah! jt joking..
E chinese gerl is my manager...
Font row:Nurul(saiful's gf),Yana(khairul's gf),me,Ros(Rahman's gf),jessie(manager n suhaimi's gf)
Back row:Khairul,Saiful,Danial,Rahman,Suhaimi..

N tiz pic is taken at my houz..nothin 2 tell..all e same persons n same details as above..

Tiz been taken at khairul's houz wif his mother..Its like a big family huh!!
I lyke tiz pic!!

Tiz..i seriously had no comment abt it!!Jt making an emotional,scretching,stupidness faces..i think!!
See e brown shirt guy?
Taz karim,the most irritating guy,step hensem in kfc n mostly i hatez..
Wanna knw secret abt him?
He lykes me..yah!!
Eeee...my fren,Danial told me...
At ferst i dnt believe it bt almost all e kfc members knew it..
Tats suck...
Here e story...
Tiz guyz meeting us at lakeside after 7...
While on e way,i was chatting wif Danial..He asked me y i wanna quit,wat job i wanna find n etc...
Then came tiz idiotz push both of us..He show his madness face n jealousy..
"Oit..Korg bbl tk ingt dunia sey..aku spi korg tk tegur tk salam..khusyuk nah bbl.."
Wat e hack!! wats wrg wif him man!!
"Leh bbl baik2 pe...aku n danial jt talking abt y i quiet e job..yg ko nk emo asl siak?
then my fren rply.."Ape tk,dia jealous ar ko bbl ngan aku..dia kn suka kat ko!!"
tat idiotz walk away in indeed..eeeeeeeeeeeee!!!Plz la i already had a boyfrend...
Fuck off la!! I dnt entertain S.S pplz...Sux!!
E whole night was nt my happy dae..he was such a monkey n irritating guy...Whenever danial wanna come close 2 me he will pull him away n left me alone behind..IDIOTZ!!!

Whatever it is im happy coz i wont see his face again....
Btw 2 my sis nur..happy anniversary..Sowie cnt make it on ur engagement dae..went out hari raye lerr wif ma frenz..Nxt yr ur big dae huh!! Soo fast..tk sbr2 gi2..After tat kak ida lak.. haix!! Left me alone...:( nvm my dae is near...jt wait n see...hehehe!!!

See ya!!!

2005-10-25T21:45:00.000+08:00

Itz been long tyme nvr update my blog..kinda bz wif werk,werk,werk n of coz preparation fer Hari Raya..Jt nxt week..
Nothin much 2 sae act,jt tired of werking.N guess wat,me no longer werking there by nxt week,cnt stand e rumours.All those aunties n u knw wat i mean...N adela sbab2 yg lain..hehe..

2005-09-14T19:50:00.000+08:00

~Congrats 2 my kak sedare....KAK IDA!! On her engagement~

~E preety lady in e houz~

~Hantaran from e bride 2 e groom~

~Selamat bertunang:Nurul Hida & Md Fadly~

~Hantaran from e groom 2 e bride~

~E dae tat we waiting 4 hav come~

~When cn tat ring b mine eh? hmmm...~

~E sweet sistaz~ Kak nur biler lak eh? hmm..=>~

2005-09-02T21:12:00.000+08:00

Hey..long tyme nvr update my blog...super bz tiz months..Aniwei Happy Belated B'dae 2 my dearest fren..DLA!!Best wishes 2 u... may ur relationship wif ur deary will last..hehe..

Act..nothin much 2 tell jt been bz tiz few days..Worried abt my deary..Sick lyke wat..39.5'C..!! Oh my tatz high..even his ear need operation if tiz few days nt recover well...Gosh!!Wat act happpen 2 him? Bt watever it is hope he recover fast..

Liana,dnt b sad..cheer up gerl...i knw hw u feel..bt im sure u both will be 2gther again..thgz will werk up..u sad i also feel sad gerl...dnt gav up hope k..i knw he still luv u..dnt worry..jt carry on wif ur life k gerl...=)

2005-08-13T20:51:00.000+08:00

aaarrrggghh!!So damn fucking tired...tiz few days nt enough sleep..go werk wif a pair of panda eyes...lyke wat sia..

Jt nw opening..alamak!!Punyela sleepy..Wake up early2,iron cloth,bath,gt dress then blah 2 werk..At werk me lyke wat sey...hahaha..perangai mcm siak..fight wif ma fren liyana..kekek siak..she kick me,tried 2 kick her back,dgn tk sengaja,gueh jatuh...sgt memalukn sey..!!! Luckily only kahirul npk..e rest jt saw me terduduk i2 je..if nt kecoh ar satu KFC...my fucking shoes ar make me drop..very e slippery..bt watever...bknnye jatuh cm nangka busuk...atlast bingit sendiri..merepek kan..watever!!
Paling benci skali is tat suhaimi had a big fight wif his girlfren..1 of our manager jugak.Kecian dia!!First tyme saw him so hot tempered lyke hell...nk katakn tk takut,i2 dah bedek 2..I felt really bad..izzit b'coz of me they fight? coz at werk i easily gt along wif suhaimi..buat taco bell same ngan dia..of coz rapatln..tiap2 hari npk muka dia je..gurau2 pn ngan dia..tk salah pe havin fun wif my frenz..bknnye kiter buat tk senonoh..i cn see,everytyme wen suhaimi talk 2 me,making jokez,his gerlfren nt happy..out of sudden gt 2 knw they fight..haix!!Dahla suhaimi,u dnt talk 2 me anymore ar..tk nk theor relationships gettin worst jt b'coz of me..serba salah sey..i asked all e kfc gang,they said,i treat suhaimi is same lyke i treat them as frenz nt more tahn tat..mane gueh ade gatal2 sey..think ar..tiap2 hari keje,bdk melayu,onli me,suhaimi..liyana kdg2 keje,coz she's skooling..mcm mane tk rapatkn..dah 2 tk pasal hari2 buat taco bell stuff ngan dia..Kiter gurau2 pn as frenz pe..i knw my limit n he knw his limit 2..we had no feelingz towards each otherz pe...haix!! Kiter leh gurau2 onli if his gerlfren is nt werking..klau tk jgn harap nk bersemuka n bbl..kdg2 2 kiter gaduh sey..his gerlfren senyum je..bingit je siak!!Watever it is hope he cn settle his relationship in a good way....haix!!mcm2 ar!!

2005-07-30T11:59:00.000+08:00

I DNT KNW WAT HAPPEN 2 MY LIFE!!I DNT KNW WAT HAPPEN 2 ME!!I DNT KNW WAT HAPPEN 2 MY RELATIONSHIP!!I DNT KNW WAT HAPPEN 2 HIM!!I DNT KNW WAT HAPPEN 2 US!! AAARRRGGGHHH!!!!!!STRESSS!!!!

Feeling so3 sad ryte nw..dnt knw wat 2 do..jt waiting n b prepared wat happen 2 us next.. hopping a good thgz 2 happen nt a bad thgz..haix!!!Cnt believe my eyez wat i hav saw..cnt think negative much..think positive faezah..POSITIVE!! All i hav 2 do nw is 2 prepared!!!! haix!!!

Start 2 go werk soon after posting my entry...damn tired!!seriously!! I started doin cashier already...ferstly so gabra..mountain dew 2 lemondae hahaha..siak je..rahman kat si2 bkn nk tlg,tlg ketawakn lagik ade..tk baek sey... bt watever it is..tired 2 tired ar bt e fun is so happening..cnt wait 2 go werk mit all my buddies yg giler2 2..2dae surely will b so much fun!!
see ya!!!

2005-07-22T11:59:00.000+08:00

aaarrggghhh!!!Malas sey nk g keje...start @ 4pm-9pm...ptg2 gni malas nk kluar..bt wat 2 do..
2dae boring gilernye ar diaorg semua tk ade ar..they hav plan 2 go somewhere else..duuh!!! tk ajak sey..bt watever!!guyz outing gerlz jgn sibuk...hmm... i even steal their pic frm 1 of my fren friendster..hahaha..jahat sey..case tk ade keje nk wat..

Top from left:unkwn,Rahman,Suhaimi
Bottom from left:Khairul n Saiful

on e left tatz my manager,iskandar..haha followed by my kfc gang members,
suhaimi,rahman n khairul!!

2bad e gerlz i cnt get e pic..so mayb next tyme..~chiao~

2005-07-20T19:53:00.000+08:00

im soo bored..2dae my dae off..no plan 2 go out.Nothin 2 do at home..east sleep watch tv,listen 2 music n surfing internet..So lazy 2 do houz werk enough cookin at werk naek jelak..leh g2 eh..bt watever..!!2dae my mum cook alot of dishes..meleleh je air liur...So yummy!! I really eat alotz 2 dae..long tyme tk mkn nasi dah mkn cm org gelojoh g2..asyik mkn ayam je kt keje..n all e fast food stuff..naek jelak..nt good fer ur health..!!Watever!!

2005-07-18T21:10:00.000+08:00

Haix..im so3 damn tired..jt came back frm werk..
2dae really damn bored...coz badut2 tk ade...so abit slack..
Harap kn kak nina jela tat cn entertain us..
Werk mcm biase,2dae aman ckit tk ade gaduh tk ade ape..relek n cool je!!
E farking races manager tk ade bt si bitch 2 ade ar...bt nothin happen..mcm biase je..jt feelin so tired n sleepy onli...2morrow werk again aaarrggghh!!!!Leh mati sey gni..penat tk terkata.. Tiz is wat i so call life!!watever!!!

2005-07-15T19:34:00.000+08:00

Im so piss of 2dae,Suppose goin outz 2dae watchin movies wif u knw who ar..
Bt sadly i cnt,coz i overslept n feelin 2 tired n lazy 2 go out.Toll him tat i cnt make it,he accept tat bt in a different way.Showing his attitude..Tk pernah2 mcm gni sey..Bt watever!! I dnt care anymore..wat ever he wanna do go ahed..im sick n tired fer all tiz stuff n stupid ego of urs...
U go wif ur own way i go wif my own way..u dnt lyke it then SHUT UP N CHANGE!!!
Complaining fer seldom mit each other,bt dnt u realise it whenever i wanna met u,u bz if ur stuff,whenever u wanna met me im bz werking.We both so bz till we did nt knw wat happen wif our relationshipz..So wake up!!!Jt dnt blame me alone,u too!!! Haix..im so sick of all tiz stuff....

2005-07-13T20:23:00.000+08:00

jt reach home..so damn tired!!!Long tyme nvr update blog..kinda miz..
Many story wanna tell..jt wanna find tyme 2 update...

Really enjoy werking @ Funan,Many kind of artist u cn meet...Last month met LuLu Tobing,Actress DIA!!Cnt believe it sey..She was so damn pretty w/o make-up..seriously...
Then e following few weeks Taufik Batisah came 2 ma werk place..He really damn low-profile sey..At first i saw him bt nt knowing tat he was Taufik Batisah,kinda irritating,he walk there,here, anywhere ar...Till i gt irritate i go out n see outside,Full!!No place 2 sit..no wonder ar he walk there here.Till then my fren,siti kol,she said Tufik Batisah is here,Fucking shock,went out n saw him..Face 2 face...E guy tat i saw jt knw was HIM??!! Really damn profile sey..He wear cap,spec,green shirt n jeans..slack giler babinye...Look hensem sey...Jt gav him a smile n he smile back..khekhe...Happy sey!!He really dnt look lyke an artist sey...Bt i regret,coz cnt take photo wif him...:( Bt tats e happiest dae 2 me..khekhe..
Then yest,Suhaimi yusoff came 2 ma werk place..wif his wife..hehhe...Damn funny sia he...Talking non-stop...Kacau my fren rabak2..spi gabra sey member..kecian munis..Really pecah perut..hehe..
I WONDER WHO WILL B E NEXT ARTIST I MET....Hopping Tom Welling or Tengku Ryn..khekhe..TK DPT AR!!

Back 2 2dae story,really fucking frustrated sia..Standard ar gaduh wif 1 of ma staff member Peng!!Tats fucking annoyed busted bitch!!U think u jt get promoted 2 1 star staff,u already hav a power 2 control every1 izzit? Releks sua!! 4 me ur 1 star nothin ar beb!!SUara kemek,dah overdose gak isap batang spi bbal tk etul...Wen first i start werk till knw i gav face she really step my hate sia....Nt only u ar cn show attitude...Jt knw i was extremely buzy doin line (taco bell stuff)Then tiz idiot keep on askin me 2 supply crispy,i said wait,then she raised her voice abit,i jt ignored it,gav face,no choice wat,many order,so i hav 2 settle order first then cn supply...if she cnt wait,jt go inside n take ar..jgn jadi pemalas..then e worst part is e 3rd thgz..walau man..she shout lyke a mad gerl,OIT GERL!!DEAF IZZIT?,..SUPPLY CRISPY AR!!CUSTOMER WANT RYTE!!Kepala buto dia ar...She really test my patient sia!!No choice i hav 2 shout back!! Shut e fuck up ar gerl,u Blind izzit,cn ask aunty nina 2 supply ryte..asshole!!Theres no need 2 shout ar bitch!!!She was so embarassed coz many customer looking at her..bodoh kn!!!
Dah 2 tk pasal manager pn same ar..Races!!Buat keje separuh,lepas 2 carik MELAYU suroh sambung keje dia..Otak dia..nk lynkn dia limit2 kiter kene maki sey ngan customer..y nt she asked anther stAff 2 do..bangsa dia bnyk goyang kaki sey bt she jt close 1 eyes..fed-up wif her..tk kasi muka ar...i jt ignore wat she asked me 2 do..she nt satisfied,she called me 2 go to her office..fine no prob!Tk gentar!
She really said straight forward ar!!Tk happy she said straight 2 ma face..so wat!!After she finish talking,i straight said every thgz tat im nt happy wif her..fair wat,she nt happy wif me,im nt happy wif her 2..she thinkz everythg she do is ryte ar..tk dpt ar!!After i finish reveal evrythgz,she realise it n SAY SORRY 2 ME!!khekhek siak!!Manager ckp sowie kt staff!! I said 2 her tat i dnt need her sowie..nt worth 2 me..I straight blah!!Malas nk lyn org mcm gni..I did tat coz i really damn hate ppl who is races..seriously!!Pantang skali...
Watever it is,i hav 2 b patient,keje bnyk dugaan..ceh!Watever!!~

2005-07-03T00:56:00.000+08:00

AAAARGGGHH!!!Bingit sey!!Cnt sleep @ all..Tiz irritating headache make me fed-up..2morrow werking bt im on mc..tkleh tahan ar..tired n im so damn sick..Ape je,sakit2 leh main comp,merepek sey!! Bt doesnt mean u sick,mesti lepakz je kan,u also need 2 entertain urself 2 release ur stress of ur sickness ryte? hahaha...watever!

So damn tired,werk lyke hell spi tk ingat nk reha..tat thurz suppose 2 end @ 8:30am-5:30 pm bt extant 2 9pm..alamak! lek tercabut ar kaki..dah la manager baru mcm sial,lak 2 org yg nk check benda2 dtg..alamak!! Stress babi ar!!
U jt cook tat fucking zinger then e holding tyme is 30 mins,after 30 mins tat fucking thgz still hot bt org yg check 2 suroh buang,dah expired!!Kepala hotak ar! Sayang sey..3 full tray of zinger we waste..no choice ar!!

Then yest,me n saiful do line (means taco bell staff) Lyke want sia...!!!Masing2 mcm org giler ar!!Seriously...!!!Really damn crowded ar!! From 11 am till nite ar tk stop2 sey..spi mkn tk ingat sey...Si saiful nk isap rokok tk dpt2..gueh nk relek nk mkn tk dpt2...Mcm nk maki je 2 all e customer...1 dtg semua dtg sebnyk2nye..Siak ar!!

Dah 2 tk pasal,i quarrel wif e customer ar..wen my manager order me 2 do floor,Alamak..bingit babi ar!! Got tiz 2 jantan n 1 betina really make me fed-up ar!!...diarog fikir ini tpt sampah pe buang brg sesuka hati..3 tyme sey i clean up @ e same table..mcm sial ar!! tumpahkn air la,serakkn fries la,tumpahkn coslaw la..fuck u ar!! bingit sey..I really dnt gav a damn 2 tiz kind of pplz...Kene mesti kene nye..spi saiful n rahman kluar sey help me..@ last tatz idiotz gav up n mengalah..fikir i2 mak bapak diaorgnye tpt pe..Blah ar!!

Then jt nw,i dnt knw wat happen 2 me suddenly tiz stupid sickness came n make me wanna fainted..suppose finish @ 9 pm bt my manger release me @ 8pm..Tkleh tahan ar!! Pening giler nye...i think im nt enough sleep tatz y ar!! Bt watever...Sakit mcm mane pn im still a strong gerl..ceh!! merepek!! So,i guess i wanna go 2 sleep..dah slippy ar..hehe..update ma blog soon wne im free..chiao!!!!

2005-06-27T15:46:00.000+08:00

Hoorraaayy!!!2dae i off!! Happy sey...
After a long tyme keje keras tk tau nk rest ke ape..nw is e day 2 relaxs myself..!!!
Bt miz my werk place...Miz bdk2nye....Tk rugi sey keje sane..Seriously..E environment very e fun!! 2morrow onwards start werk @ 8:30 am..duhh!! Lemah sey nk angun pagi...:(

Tat sat really mcm sial ar!! Tyme peak hour ptg around 6+ nearly 7..semua bingit sey..E customer very e cerewet siak..I was doin a burger dah wrap everythgz so jt give it 2 e cashier..tapi e customer bnyk nye cerewet sey..E wrapping paper too oily la less lettuce la watsoever ar..bnyk songeh..If u want more then pay more ar..IDIOT!!
Customer bingit ngan cashier,cashier bingit ngan kiter,kiter bingit ngan cashier n customerz.Cnt they jt said hold 4 a min or watsoever..Kiter kat base dah mcm org giler,tk tentu arah..buat semua tunggang langgang..Cashier sdap2 mrh2 n maki2 kiter.
Eh gerl,fuck u ar i asked 4 a hawain pizza ryte y nt yet ready..Kepala buto ar..e Hawaiin still cooking ar,ass hole..Stupid sia...Bingit!!! Yg si rahman lak bingit ngan si munis.Bnyk songeh,dah kene mrh ngan customerz abeh lepas geram kt rahman..siape tk bingit!! SI suhaimi tk abis2 ngan kannina dia n BOdoh dia.Really e bingt ar during e peak hour!! Standard saturday usually bnyk org..Tk pernah2 sey kiter semua mcm gni..

1 more thgz i really hatez tiz one gerl whom name peng!! She sux..totally sux..Mentang2 aku 18 ko 23 nk tunjuk belang ar kt aku...Sikit2 nk pekik,sikit2 nk tengking.Ko pikir aku ape sial...Fed-up ar..B'coz of tiz 1 gerl semua no mood ar nk keje..Dekni ngada2 sikit...Semua staff hate her tat much..seriously!!Umur 23 biler bukak topi 40+ ar..Pp paling step jambu kt keje..dia ar...Wanita china terakhir..ya sux!!! Bluek!!Mentag2 aku bdk baru nk pijak kepala aku lak...GO 2 HELL AR!!!!!!!!

Btw fer my lil sis,yana,happy belated b'dae 2 u..Take care of urself huh gerl,dah besar pn ko..hehe..tk care of flizz...ayte!!

2005-06-21T15:21:00.000+08:00

2dae im nt werking,im off!! Yupz!! N tiz e 1 n onli tyme i gt 2 check my friendster,blog n etc..thanx 2 ma kak nur fer checking my friendster all tiz while..thank2 very muchie much..heheh...

So e tired yest..start werk @ 12 end @ 10:30 pm..Lyke wat sey rest...punyelah bnyk org...tk stop2 wat keje...break 2 kali je..dah 2 all e way diri je tkleh duduk..mcm nk patah sey kaki...Bt overall fun ar...bdk2 kat s2 semua giler2...Esp e guyz..U knw..guyz standard ar!!Fun ar..klau tk ade diaorg,punyelah mendak kat si2...Malay gerlz onli me n siti e rest alotz of Chinese gerlz...Malay guyz leh katakn bnyk ar...ok2la...
After tat kiter berpisah,they all g farewell coz 1 of e manager gt 2 transfer 2 another place..left me wif e rest bdk2 hougang dtg...Boring sey...Aniwei thanx 2 suhaimi fer e taco u make fer me e other day..dunno wats his motive n thanx 2 siti fer helping me outz..hehehe...
2morrow i'll b werking from 12 to10:30 AGAIN!!! Haix wat a tiring day....!!

2005-06-11T09:57:00.000+08:00

Its been along tyme nvr update my blog...Been bz doing my stuff n finding a job..Yupz!! I already found 1!!Yeppy!!! After so long frustrated bt en up wif a succed.khekhekhe....
Yest went fer e training,so damn tired sey...all e way stand alotz customer out dare..Leh mati sey..Kaki punyelah lenguh..!!My Mr Hafidz also already hav a job@ Pizza Hut!! Gerek sey..Kiter yg nk keje Pizza Hut dia dah dpt!! Nvm good fer him...

E one tat makez me tk faham n fucking tempered is tat tiz fella using my nick to tag @ my frenz blog dgn care biadap...Wat e fuck act u trying 2 do gerl??!!!Tk dpt liana aku lak mangsa ko,lagik tk dpt ar!! Nk pki nick aku leh,tapi name nk buat aku sebagai mangsa ko,tk dpt ar gerl!!! Simpan jari celaka ko 2 sua!! Tk payah susah2 nk tag2 kt blog,ko bdk tamp aku pn bdk tamp,Klau tk puas n u realli want me 2 b ur mangsa fine! Jumpe face 2 face ar!!! Tag2 kt blog tk main ar..Kental sungguh!!!So wat if u bdk merah,Tk gentar pn!!!
Watever it is bdk mcm gni jgn dilyn,klau dilyn makin menjadi gilernye..Well watever wif tat!!! I dnt gav a damn!!!

2005-05-31T16:27:00.000+08:00

I dnt care wat ever fuck u wanna say abt me!!!
If u dnt lyke me then jt sae straight 2 my face!!
I hate a bitches lyke u!!
Who e hell r u wanna say me tat way huh?!!!
Nk kata jambu tk dpt ar gerl!! Ngacak muke lu dulu ar gerl..
Wats e motive act u throw tat fucking werdz n critisize me huh?
U think u so damn gd enough...Kiss my ass!!
I hate bitches,hatez liers,hatez egois n hatez fucking hyprocrite lyke u!!!
Knw u has a very gd frenz bt tis is wat i gt in return u bitch!!
I nvr thought u change in thiz way..
Gt influenced by ur fucking bitchez frenz tatz y u b'came tiz way...
Wake up gerl! Wake up!!! U nt a small kidz..
U hav a brain!So used it 2 think! Nt 2 keep it in ur BUD!!
Im so fucking irrtated n hot 2 e max wif ur fucking attitude n childish..!!
Wake up n looked around...Wheres all ur fav frenz tatz u care of...
N where is U tatz we knw since e dae we b'came frenz huh?
Jt leave me alone u bitch!!
Change ur attitude!!I want e way u r!! Nt a fake poser fucking bithes attitude!!

*Im so pissed off!!! Cnt believe my gd frenz do tis 2 me nt me us e rest of my frenz..!! Oh god plz 4give her of watever bad attitude she has done...May god b wif u gerl!!!A gd frenz tat i wnt ferget!!! Sign off!!!*

2005-05-31T16:14:00.000+08:00

Im so Happy!!!!Yup Yup Yup!!! So DAMN happy!!!

E Culprit who robbed our hp has been CAUGHT!!!!Wakakaka....
Tatz e gd news bt e bad news is tat e other 1 hav nt been caught....sob* sob*
Bt nvm 1 gt caught is enough fer me coz e other 1 easily 2 find..lalalala....
Ambik ko ubat..berani wat berani tanggung...hehehe

Yest wen 2 BDK HQ..Coz we gt a call frm tiz 1 officer.So we were told 2 went there yest.
Many studentz out there..Same case as me...wakakak..Bt cant b bothered....
Wat i knw is tatz im so DAMN HAPPY!!!!!!Lalalala....
Wish cld go 2 BDK HQ Again..khekhekhe...y? adalah!!! lalalala!!!!

2005-05-24T16:07:00.000+08:00

Tat sundae,we went out..Who e we?? Me,my bro,my honey n his sista.Kecoh giler sey.Jap nk g si2 jap nk g sini.Atlast kiter jalan2 kt town jap.Ambek gambar sane sini mcm org ape g2..atlast cuma sikit gbr je yg kiter berkenan.hahaha...
Paling kecoh biler nk main bowling.Masing2 giler sey.Semua semangat nk g marina main bowling kt sane.Dah spi kene main 1 hr only coz after seven dah ade org book..Bingit sey..so tk jadi.Plan nk g pasir ris nasib kol dah fullu book.Nk g bukit panjang plaza dah nk dkt fully book.AlamaK!! Bingit sey..dah la semangat2 happy2 nk main.Atlast tk jadi. So kiter tgk wayang.Hahaha..Citer Amityville.Kecoh sey.Baik2 citer 2 seram terus tk seram sey.Org blakang punyelah kecoh.E back row all straight bdk2 lelaki cuma e very end 1 pp je.Kecoh sey.gt irritate wif tis 1 guy behind my bro.Mcm dia director je.Tau je 2 godfather nk mati la ape la.Siak je.Bising sey cannot concertrate.Part seram jadi kelakar.Dah 2 tepik2 mcm org giler.i2 tk pasal kaki tk tau diam 2.Spi tertendang my kerusi n my bro.Kekek ar.Bt overall im enjoy it.Cn say citer 2 seram ar cuma monyet2 kt blakang je yg buat citer 2 tk seram make it into comedy sey..Bt fun ar.
After watching we go esplanade,extremely so hungry saw food stall kiter pn g mkn.Then lepakz at esplanade there infront e sea.Banyak sey org.Like fully book sey from e first 2 e end fully sey.Bt atleast hav some space fer us 2 seat.After tat we went home.Dah kul 11 lebih bt e night still young sey felt lyke nt satisfied tk nk balek dulu mcm cpt sangat bt my bro dah penat terpakse la alek.spi rumah dlm kul 12+ alek naek teksi cpt ler spi..

2005-05-20T15:45:00.000+08:00

Tat dae i went out 2 find a job.N i found 1.Might b i gt 2 werk @ wild2 wet...They deadly need workerz..Many vacancy u cn find out there..All tiz thanx 2 kak lydia fer telling me fast..haha..atleast hav a job then lepakz @ home doin nothin.Do housez werk is already a must.Ddk rumah klau duit masok tkpe nie 1 habok tk ade.Better still werk.Atleast cn help my father pay some bill n even my hp bill.Jt cnt wait 2 start werk.if i gt e job u will be seeing me changing skins colourz..hahaha..

2005-05-16T16:43:00.000+08:00

I jt dnt wanna be offended.I dnt knw y i felt tiz way.Ever since i read some1 blog tiz feeling came 2 me.Im thinking in 2 wayz.Whether e personz referring 2 me or some1 else.Lyke i said i dnt wanna be offended.I knw last tyme pplz knw me as my old nick tatz was "Babygerl" Bt im nt using tat nick anymore.I hav changed my nick.Jt knwn as ezah.Long tymez i changed bt still therez some1 did nt knw it.I read my frenz blog i was so fucking shock when tiz 1 personz using my old nick.Jt scared pplz think negative abt me.Y must i do tat 2 my good frenz? Watz my motive act do tat 2 my frenz.I love my friendship wif all my great frenz,i jt dnt wanna loose 1 fren.Jt b'coz of misunderstanding we nt been frenz anymore.

Since when i knw yan n since when i gt into geng member? I knw yan after i knw yana.Ya of coz yan is yana stead tat tyme.N im wif my honey,Hafidz.Bt since when i stead wif yan? Frm there cn think wat,e personz who use my old nick is nt me.I dnt knw wat 2 do.Jt praying tat my friendship wif tiz personz will last 4ever.

Knape mesti balak 1 per1 menimpa diri ku ini? Wat act i hav done wrong? Jt feeling sad.Dnt wanna b offended.Bt e way e personz said lyke tat personz referring 2 me.Tatz y i dare 2 ryte tiz in my blog...

2005-05-13T13:58:00.000+08:00

Yeaaahhh!!2day is ma B'dae..Friday e 13th..khekhe

Happy b'dae 2 me,

Happy b'dae 2 Faezah,

Happy b'dae 2 me...

hhuuuurrraaayyyyy!!!

Korg2..i want present...Present plz...hehehehe.....

2005-05-07T19:04:00.000+08:00

Tat dae im havin fun.Goin out wif jamilah n dla.Suppose wif yana,yan n ikah..Bt they cnt make it.Our intention of goin out is 2 find a job.Atlast we did nt find any of it.hahahz..Many vacancy needed in far east bt we none of it we interested.Then we went 2 takashimaya.Bertawaf sey kiter nk carik kedai mango atlast we found.Act,i wanna ask whether there is a vacancy bt e stupid of me i 4got 2 asked.hahaz.
Jamilah feeling so hungry so i brought her 2 lucky plaza.We waited fer dla 2 come.I waited fer her outside e lucky plaza.Kecian dian.Basah kuyup.Ingat dia ngan yati bt yati cnt follow.After eating we went 2 HMV.Jln2 kt si2 sambil 2 tanye2 ade vacancy ke tk,skali ke lain lak g nye.Npk tpt neo-print semua dah mcm org jakun.Kecoh giler sey.Bt really fun.Masing2 dgn gaya sendiri.Pat paling kecoh nk decorate gbr..ya allah! hanya tuhan saje yg tau brapenye kecoh kiter..Hahahahz..aniwei really fun goin outz wif them.Hopez we go outz again in another day.Yana hope u cn make it nxt tyme..hahaz..

2005-04-28T14:50:00.000+08:00

"Missing"

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious,
you'll say to no one:"Isn't something missing?"
You won't cry for my absence,
I know -You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?Isn't someone missing me?
[Chorus:]
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,"
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"
[Chorus]
And if I bleed,
I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of youI'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...
[Chorus]

2005-04-28T14:22:00.000+08:00

Fed-up,Fed-up,Fed-up!!! So fed-up.....!!!!

2dae suppose e day fer photo-fit bt tat officer said tat e machine had nt yet been repaired..Wat e @$%#^*@@%...aaaarrggghhh!!!U wasting my tyme ar! Wake up so early,go there n end up tk jadi!!!Seem lyke they dnt care abt tis case.They delay n delay n delay wait till we forget e culprit face then u wanna take action..Fuck ar!!!Pemalas nk mamposnye officer!! aarrgghh!!!Im sleepy ryte nw..wanna slip..see ya nxt tyme.~chiao~

2005-04-27T16:53:00.000+08:00

early morning 10+am on mondae i went 2 bedok HQ wif my honey n my father.My father send us there. Coz we recognize e 2 fucking asshole.When reach there we ready 2 see e photo coz 100% we recognize tat both idiot.Bt e bad news is tat e inspector tld us their machine broke down n we hav 2 come again tis thurdays fer photo fit.So e inspector jt take my statement regarding wat happen 2 us.1 thgz tat hurtz me alot is tat e inspector dare 2 tell me tat im trying 2 make fake statement.Hello!! My bf frm bukit panjang n i frm tampines came so far in order 2 make a fake statement? Like duuhhh...If we make a fake statement we ourselves stupid ryte coz we have 2 paid e "saman"..bodohkn 2...Klau malas ckp malas kiter leh carik inspector lain la 2 help us.Wait till my honey died or badly hurt then u wanna said tat we make a true statement..haix!! Really sakit hati sey,dah tau we gonna come tat day fixla ur machine nw we hav 2 come again tis thurz day morninglak 2.Nw e same case lyke us has happen in bishan...!!! cnt wait fer e 2 both fucking idiotz asshole 2 gt arrested.They really enjoying stealling pplz hp. Melayu rompak melayu..tgk ar!!Malukn masyarat melayu sey.Pulak 2 lepas sembahyg jumaat! Ape nk jadi ngan bdk melayu skg...haix..!!!! Ngah mengamuk nie!!!

2005-04-22T19:12:00.000+08:00

Todae,is my bad luck dae.Felt lyke wanna cry n scream...Aaarrggghh!! Why must tis happen 2 us?!?!?! My honey hp n my hp has been robbed!!!!! Hw its happen?

Jt nw i went out 2 return library book.Then i went 2 TM 2 find my neighbour b'dae present.I aslo brought 1 mango white t-shirt. After tat we went 2 burger king we suppose 2 eat there bt i dnt knw hw came i wanna take away.Then we take 293 bus n alight @ dunman sec school back gate there.We decided 2 "lepakz kt bwa blk" near e bus-stop there.So tat its easy fer my honey n me 2.We eat our burgers.Alotz student out there.We jt ignore coz we enjoying our burgerz. While eating suddenly 2 guyz approach us n threatening us.We did nt expect tat 1 of them carried a copper.1 black mly guy asked my honey y he stare @ him lyke wanna eat.We were shocked.Coz we did nt stare or see pplz.We were enjoying our bugerz.Tat guy even tuduh us tat kiter menyundal!!! Huh!! Ape ko merepek siak!! Menyundal ngan burger kape.haix.Bt 1 shocking thgz tat make us "badi" n "tergamam" is tat e other mly guy took off e copper n place @ my honey neck!! Aaarrrggghhh!!!!!! Luckly my honey strong enough to stop him frm slicing his neck.Oh my!!! I was so "badi" I cld nt do anythgz.All i cn do is 2 cry bt none of my tears drop. Bt e black guy asked his fren 2 keep e copper coz he wanna settle tis thgz wif my honey by slow talk!! After tat they both brought my honey behind of e blk which was nxt blk.I was so worried.If nt i wanna shout bt think back i scared tat e black guy took off his knife n "rodok" me.Mati siak. While waiting im thinking of run away n called fer help.Bt when suddenly i hear a loud noise.Mcm bunyi org kena rembat.Then heard lyke knife drop n etc.My mind tat tyme was blank.Totally!!

When settle my honey came 2 me i felt lyke wanna fainted when i see his neck. 1 garisan sey kt leher dia merah giler then ade sikit darah.My honey told me tat they stole our hp.I was lyke wat!!!They did all tis jt 2 stole hp? Pakai copper utk getak org? oh my! 2 tymes they place e copper @ my honey neck.After tat we straight report 2 e police station. Tis mondae we must go 2 bedok hq coz we recognise e person so we hav 2 see photo album of e person which threaten us!! Aku dahla tk keje skrg hp dah kene rompak.Aaaarrgggh!!! Aku miskin!!! haix... :(

2005-04-20T16:51:00.000+08:00

Gothic Way Of Life

Goths are judged wrongly by the social society;

gothic people are always going to be Earth's necessity.

Judgment's are placed deep into our soul;

to be respected by the everday people is are goal.

We wear the face that we make our self born to;

but we will admit that the look that have isn't glued.

We are not witches nor the devil in disguise;

we are just in are own little world, are paradise.

Black lipstick hides are true colored lips;

but other then that we have no more makeup tips.Are clothing is that based upon the color black;

we are not abusive,

so we dont kick or smack.

Our eyes are full of darkness,

but reveal are soul to the deepest;

but what it really shows is are life that we lived the fullest.

We are really normal people with the same capabilites as everyone else;

for you may not really see but we have a normal pulse.

For us we do have feelings even though you may think we don't feel;

so treat us with respect, tell us who you are and we can make a deal.

We walk amongst the people everyday with no troubles;

though most people say that we should be locked away in kennels.

Loving people like us may be strange;

but does that make us need to change.

Our makeup that we wear, is like yours, just full of two colors only;

black and white is all that we use mostly.

Chainmail hands from are pants to protect ourselves;

but from what, we will never know why or because.

Whoever came up with this kind of lifestyle;

must have had a reason for being in denial.

For those who don't know us, should get to know us well;

for we are out there, and when you see us, you will tell.

For come to speak to us, we wont bite;

for we are kind.For Goth is the way of life;

and the gothic way of life, is full of much grief

2005-04-18T14:36:00.000+08:00

Im so stress,so bored,n so desperate in finding a job.All e excuse i heard is tat they need chinese..Wat e hack!!!! AaAaaarrrgghhhh!!! Felt like kicking all tis kind of personz.Tat dae im asking 1 of tis mly gerl fer any vacancy @ orchard as in waitress at restaurant i dunno wat e name of e restaurant forgetten..she said tat there is a vacancy n they need mly.Im so happy so i sign up..after finish filling up e form there came e "BOSS"..its CHINESE.!!! She knew ma intention fer coming n straight she said she need chinese waitress..what e hell!!! Im so fed-up n tempered.E mly gerl try 2 help me.Anythg she will gave me a call....Its really kind of her..I hope i gt tat job.Im so desperate enough 2 gt a job....Mostly i hate 2 find a job @ TM...coz all of them want CHINESE!!! I even asked my kakak sedare,kak yati,2 find me a job.She work @ watson @ parkway parade so i thought theres any vacancy..she will help me asked fer it...nw wat i can do is just wait..wait n wait n wait till i gt e job if nt i drop...haix......

2005-04-18T14:21:00.000+08:00

hahaha...tat dae im gone shopping again..hehehe...b'coz tat dae ma 1st n 2nd bro dpt "gaji" khekhe...dpt je duit terus chiao..khekhe..i brought new jeans,tanktop,t-shirt,mango shirt,new shoes,3/4 pants n etc..khekhe..bestkn...mcm nk lagik g2..im nt so satisfied..tapi jgn "TAMAK" cikit2 je dnt over..hehehe..tat dad my dad brought me anythg tat i want coz dpt gaji lebih ckit yelah org nk tukar "teksi baru" hahaha...really had a great tyme.Tis is wat im waiting 4..hehehe...

2005-04-12T17:40:00.000+08:00

Yestdae was ma fav day.Watever i want my dad brought fer me..hehe..Shop till i drop..khekhe..I gt brand new beg,new shoes,new lipstickz khekhe...n lotzsa more...While shopping im nt thinkin of hungry or tired coz i gone crazy if i hear my father said whatever i want jt tk it!!Gosh!! Love my father alotz..hehehe..I also brought new bracelet..by my own money.Its enough fer my dad 2 buy alotz thgz fer me.Skali skala belajar susah akai duit sendiri jgn tau nk senang jek..khekhe tis fri im goin shopping again bt nt wif ma parents bt wif ma honeyz...Im giler shopping ryte nw..hehehe...:P

2005-04-02T18:29:00.000+08:00

Such a borin dae 2 dae..Well,im ok wif ma honey..Like i said sensertive feelingz cauz all tis happen..Im kinda bored ryte nw.Wanna talk 2 ma honey bt he's sleeping.Let him b.He's tired 1 whole day been buzy doin some of his stuff...
I heard frm ma father tat later @ night we will havin our dinner @ bedok eating seafood.Wif ma couzinz n etc..Kinda excited.hehe..Eating is 1 of my habit...alwayz eat...yummy!!!

2005-04-01T15:04:00.000+08:00

Dear plz dnt leave me..I need u in my life..Haix..i cnt bear 2 loose u.
Y must u do tis 2 me? I thought of meeting u jt nw 2 release my misses 2 u..
I tried 2 make u happy...Its great u feel tat way 2.Bt whenever i started 2 joke around u became annoyed n started 2 think of me in bab ways.I was so pissed off wen we on e way 2 TM.Alotz of pple pushing me there n here.Nt giving me way 2 pass..uuurrrgghhh!!! I gt really tempered n annoyed..Then i tried 2 cool dwn bt making jokez 2 u bt u feel annoyed n blame me 4 all tis causes..I keep my promises 2 u bt u make me tis way...I dnt mean 2 leave u jt lyke tat bt u make me do it.I ask u y bt u ask me 2 go home..I was so3 sad.U test me cn bt y cnt i test u? Plz la i chance my attitude already coz tat is wat u want bt see 4 urself.U started 2 turn back tymes. Plz dear..dnt b'coz of tis u wanna leave me..I cn bear 2 loose u.Im trying 2 be patient n i did bt in e end u e one started tis way..Haix..Wat else u want frm me? Wat else u want me 2 do so tat u satisfied wif me n happy alwayz...I knw im a bad gf..i cnt gav everythgz tat u want..Im really a bad,bad,bad gf.I was born nt 2 hav a luvs one in my life..I knw im nt tat perfect. Bt fer onces plz make my life happy n brighten up ma day.My life hav alostz of probz i never felt happy 2 e max i alwayz stress..I wanna b lyke otherz been love by their luvs 1.Im trying 2 b tat way bt u make me 2 be in e opposite way..Y dear..Watever it is im sowie 4 wat happen jt nw n e past few yrs when we 2gether...:'(

2005-03-28T17:23:00.000+08:00

Hooooraaayyy!!! My dear dah alek..Happy sey...Miss him alotz u knw...4 days lyke 4 yrs 2 me...Nw i cn share my probz 2 him abt e pass he's nt in s'pore...Hoooraaayyy!!! Khekhekhe...

Guess wat,My hubby told me tat faisal tell him tat bitch has spread tis story 2 all her frenz tat bitch even said ta whenever PRIVATE NUMBER disturb her,she will blame me..What e hell? She think in Singapore im e only 1 using private number? hahah...Dah giler ar i2 bitch..Go ahead la gerl, do wat ever u want,..Pekara merepek nk drag 2 police case..RUBBISH!! I hav no tyme fer all tis nonsence..Ape lagi nk kacau dier..tk dpt at!! What alife!!! Hiax...

2005-03-24T18:53:00.000+08:00

Boring!Boring!Boring! Nothin 2 do 2dae..even no plan 2 go out...Jt Miss my honey very much!!

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